Rain was pouring down outside, beating the house so badly I was scared we'd get leaks in the ceiling. At that time of my life with limited access to electronics, I found joy in reading books and getting lost in the way the words wove images in my brain. I sat at the table waiting for my grandma to finish cooking. I could hear her spoon scraping against the battered metal pot that rarely made an appearance. The aroma of an unknown smell spread throughout the house. A plate with a grilled cheese sandwich and a bowl of homemade tomato soup was placed in front of me. With the rain and warm meal, my slumber that night was unlike any other I've had, and I still haven't had anything better. This encapsulates the very meaning of comfort and warmth that a well-designed space can offer. Unfortunately most spaces fail to make me and other people feel this sense of comfort.
Take my family, for instance. Everyone's family has a set of values and beliefs they instill as part of the "beginner package" for general life lessons when you’re young, social etiquette like don’t call people stupid, keep your hands to yourself, and sharing is caring. Another big one in my family was that being gay, despite it being the 2000s and not the 1900s, was frowned upon. My mom told me in sixth grade that if my teacher even started to talk about gay people, I should run out of the classroom and call her immediately. My grandparents explained about 50 ways why being gay was wrong. When my cousin revealed that another cousin of ours was gay, she presented it as something "disgusting." I responded that she was being dramatic and mean, which was met with disapproval from my aunt. Once I began to really question this set of beliefs and I came out to my parents, which didn’t go well, it created what I initially took as a negative ripple effect in my life. Spaces that once felt secure like home and church, now felt distant and unfamiliar. I felt betrayed by the people that were supposed to be my biggest confidants. While this was difficult to experience, it showed me how fast things can change and that while buildings can be a sanctuary, like my grandma's house, they can just as easily be the opposite.
While I’m not able to alter the circumstances of my origins, I believe my purpose lies in architecture, where I strive to create spaces that are inviting and comforting. Unfortunately, architecture has the ability to manifest in a more hostile way that can oftentimes make people feel unwelcome and ignored. There is a name for this phenomenon, it’s called Hostile Architecture, which is a design that is made to prevent/discourage human behavior. This style of design has disproportionately affected the homeless, the disabled, and elderly, and sometimes even animals. These experiences have driven me to focus on architecture as a tool for social good, with the end goal of eradicating these inhumane design practices.
So much of our society prioritizes efficiency over genuine human experience. I believe architecture should create spaces for making memories and fostering community connecting the social, physical, and political aspects of our world. For me, architecture is more than designing buildings. It’s about being able to create spaces that can nurture human connection and generate a sense of belonging, like my grandma's house did for me. No one should have to feel alienated in spaces that are supposed to be made for them.