Growing up, my life was marked by instability, hardship, and internal battles that I had to learn to navigate at a young age. I did not grow up with a relationship with Jesus, and much of my childhood was shaped by difficult circumstances. When my dad was deported, my mom and I struggled to find stability, often moving between Mexico and the United States. Spanish was my first language, so constantly adjusting to new environments was overwhelming. During this time, I experienced abuse and serious illness, including being diagnosed with tuberculosis, which forced me to return to the United States for treatment. These experiences left me feeling isolated, anxious, and deeply depressed.
As I grew older, my mental health struggles continued to develop. I became withdrawn and began to internalize feelings of insecurity and worthlessness. In middle school, I started spending more time at my aunt’s house, where I was first introduced to prayer and the Bible. While this was meaningful, I still lacked a personal relationship with Jesus and continued to struggle internally. In eighth grade, I entered a relationship that lasted nearly three years. During that time, I made choices that were not healthy for me and that contributed to my declining mental and emotional state.
As my struggles deepened, I began to turn to unhealthy coping mechanisms. I started leaning on drinking and smoking as a way to escape the pain I was feeling. At the time, it felt like a way to numb everything, but in reality, it only made my mental health worse and pushed me further away from who I wanted to be. Looking back, I see how those choices were a response to unresolved pain and a lack of direction in my life.
At the age of 15, I was invited to attend HSM. Although I was hesitant at first, I chose to go, and that decision became a turning point in my life. HSM provided a safe environment where I felt accepted and valued. For the first time, I began to truly understand who Jesus was and what it meant to have a relationship with Him. During my first experience at The Move, I felt God’s presence in a way that was real and life-changing. That was when I made the decision to begin putting Him first in my life.
Even after that, my journey was not perfect. For a period of time, I felt like I was living two separate lives—one at church and one outside of it. This caused deep internal conflict and eventually led me to one of the lowest points in my mental health. However, it was through that brokenness that I began to understand the importance of fully surrendering my life. I made difficult but necessary decisions, including ending a toxic relationship, stepping away from harmful habits like drinking and smoking, and distancing myself from unhealthy influences. Before my junior year, I chose to get baptized and fully commit my life to Jesus.
Since then, I have experienced significant personal growth. I no longer define myself by my past or by the struggles I faced. Instead, I find my identity in God’s grace and purpose for my life. My faith has given me strength, direction, and hope, and it continues to guide my decisions daily. I have developed a strong work ethic, resilience, and a desire to grow into the person I am called to be.
My educational goal is to pursue higher education where I can continue to grow both academically and spiritually. I want to build a future where I can make a positive impact on others, especially those who are struggling with their mental health or searching for purpose and belonging. My experiences have given me a deep sense of empathy, and I want to use that to help others feel seen, heard, and valued.
As I continue my journey, I am committed to maintaining my recovery and personal growth. My plan includes staying grounded in my faith through prayer, reading the Bible, and remaining actively involved in a supportive community. I will continue to surround myself with positive influences, seek accountability, and make intentional, healthy choices. I also recognize the importance of being honest about my struggles and asking for help when needed.
To me, recovery is not a one-time decision but a daily commitment to growth, healing, and purpose. While my past has shaped me, it does not define me. I am determined to continue moving forward, using my experiences as a foundation to build a future filled with hope, faith, and impact.