Within the thin walls of our apartment bedroom, crayons smashed onto paper, the strings of a Toys-R-Us ukulele strummed softly, plastic vegetables sizzled on a toy stove, and a teddy bear’s heart was lovingly restarted. This was my childhood—a kaleidoscope of creativity and imagination.
Having moved from the Philippines at a young age, my parents and I found solace and community within a tight-knit group of newly arrived Filipino immigrants in our apartment complex. All of our mothers were sponsored by hospitals as nurses, working night shifts while our fathers hosted nightly gatherings for me and my pig-tailed friends. Those playdates, filled with laughter and dreams, became the foundation for our aspirations: artists, musicians, chefs, and doctors. Yet, as we grew older, reality set in. Many of us found our dreams slipping away due to financial barriers, familial obligations, and a lack of understanding about the pathways to higher education. College felt like an unattainable luxury, and our once-bold ambitions were often replaced with “realistic” choices, often driven by necessity rather than passion.
This transformation disheartened me. I watched my ates (term for 'older sisters', but in this case, respected older female friends), who once envisioned bright futures, settle for familiar and more accessible careers like nursing, or even forgo their dreams altogether. I recognized the weight of cultural expectations and systemic barriers, but I was fortunate to avoid some of the challenges that held others back—like sexism, early motherhood, or crippling financial responsibilities. This privilege allowed me to navigate my own educational journey with a bit more freedom.
Fueled by my experiences, I became determined to forge my own path. I started an AAPI alliance club in high school, seeking inspiration from teachers who recognized my potential. With their encouragement, I convinced my parents of my ambitions and applied for scholarships that opened the doors to college. It was during my freshman year that I began to truly understand the historical and institutional struggles faced by Filipino women. I learned about the intricate ties between Filipino labor, migration, and nursing, illuminated in works like Empire of Care by Catherine Ceniza Choy. It was a revelation that my experiences as a first-generation Filipina were not isolated, but rather part of a broader narrative of resilience and strength.
As I continued my studies, I discovered a passion for statistics and data analytics. With each new skill I acquired, I kept my personal history and the stories of those around me close to my heart. I found ways to apply my knowledge, whether it was creating an app to help immigrant families retain their first languages or developing data dashboards to analyze the impact of air pollution on marginalized and low-income communities. My background has continually informed my work, guiding me in using technology for social good. This past summer, I had the incredible opportunity to be sponsored by Amazon for research in cybersecurity to protect Internet users' vulnerable information, a chance that further ignited my desire to make a difference.
Now, as I face the challenges of being a Filipina woman in STEM, navigating college independently, and supporting myself through part-time jobs, my passion for diversity and representation burns brightly. I am driven to return to my community, to inspire others to pursue their dreams just as we once envisioned. My aim is to establish mentorship networks that connect Filipina mentors with high school students, promoting generational knowledge and personal support. By fostering these connections, I hope to empower others to reach for the stars, ensuring that our childhood dreams don’t fade away but instead flourish into reality.