Growing up, I spent countless hours in church. I thoroughly enjoyed the music and loved the people. My parents have been evangelizing throughout my life. I often reminisce on witnessing my grandmothers lead worship in song in their respective churches. My late great aunt pastored the family church, and my mother’s twin brother currently pastors this church. Needless to say, growing up, I was taught all about the Christian faith, its customs, and practices. However, there is a difference between being in the church building and discovering the Lord for yourself. My journey into a relationship with Christ surged as an undergraduate student at the University of Pennsylvania.
My grandma would always tell me that just a little faith goes a mighty long way, through the lows and highs of life. As a South Florida native, I knew that moving up north for college would test me mentally and physically. The cold winters alone shook me. I did not own a Winter coat. I was also transitioning to a life away from my brother. We were connected hip to hip since birth. Things felt foreign and uncertain. I did not consider the impact it would have on my faith. Because I was born and raised in the church, I knew about the word of God, but there was not often an opportunity for me to apply it to my struggles. This is in part due to the nurture we experience as youth. We are encouraged by church members and taught to support one another fervently. When you step away from your hometown, that support system can feel out of reach. I experienced homesickness and depressive episodes, which significantly impacted my academics in my first year of college. Because of my upbringing, I luckily knew to lean on the Rock of Ages when my heart was overwhelmed. I found that prayer, alone, was not the answer.
As I sought to repair my academic blunder, I knew I had to do more to connect with the Heavenly Father. The next step for me was to read about what he’d done for others in the bible that had been tried and tested in some way. This led me to the story of Job and how his perfect lifestyle was disrupted by trying times. Though he lost nearly everything, he remained faithful to God. He refused to curse God or give in to the idea that God was punishing him. I, too, started to feel hopeless. Students and teammates around me would complain about classes, professors, exams, etc. I was surrounded by negative speech. This story encouraged me to push through my situation and trust that God’s will is perfect. However, one element spoke to me during my readings. I was intrigued by his interactions with his friends. These interactions highlighted something that had been missing in my life: wise counsel.
The next necessary step in my journey to faith in God was finding a church to build a community. Luckily, I met extended family members in Philadelphia, and my cousin pastors a church in West Philly. I faithfully attended services and found my Philadelphia church community full of support and Godly wisdom. Cousin Becky, the Pastor, would always encourage me to keep the faith and do the work. She would quote James 2:14: “What does it profit, my brethren, if someone says he has faith but does not have works?” So, I did the work. I volunteered hours to connect with my newfound church family, including helping lead Bible studies and helping their dance ministry. Through preparation for these activities, I found the trustworthy, faithful God who helped me finish my undergraduate journey and has called me to pursue a career in Education.
Through ministry, I discovered a love for facilitating growth and knowledge in teens. There is a spark that goes off, a bulb that turns on, a discovery that occurs when children are given the exemplary leadership. This was my purpose. I currently work as a Middle School History teacher and aspire to transition to an administrative role. Research shows that the representation of men in the Education sector has significantly declined in the 21st century. According to Education Next, only about 6% of teachers in the United States are men of color (Reeves). Lack of representation is a factor in the disparaging gap in both social and academic performance between the genders. When I walk into the classroom, I must be aware that I may be the only Black male teacher these children have ever interacted with. In my independent school, I have observed that my male students are more susceptible to distractions in and outside of the classroom. I have also seen that girls mature faster and are able to prioritize more responsibly. As a result of this chasm, their test scores and work quality are similarly unbalanced. I am driven by the need to close that gap for as many young male students of color (and students of color in general) who may have experienced similar Education.
For the first two decades of my life, I missed out on experiencing a Black male educator in the classroom. It was not until my time at the University of Pennsylvania (UPenn) that I was fortunate enough to engage with a professor who looked like me. This was an eye-opening experience because it gave me a new sense of belonging, but simultaneously shed light on something I had felt all along but never confronted. I turned my attention inward. What factors make me who I am today? Family history? Personal experiences? Religious ideologies?
During this reflective period, I was reminded of one influential Black man in Education who, unbeknownst to me, had an enormous impact on who I am today. Now a principal at my former elementary school, Mr. Bembry was the vice-principal during my tenure there. Like myself, Mr. Bembry is a former collegiate athlete, and I always admired his ability to lead with kindness and daily morning pleasantries as students walked into school. He was simultaneously stern and sympathetic. Mr. Bembry left a lasting impact on my life, and this program is an opportunity to pay it forward. I want to be a Mr. Bembry for other young Jasons.
With this degree, I not only want to establish myself as an administrator, but I also want to expand my impact. I seek to spread the gospel while mentoring, guiding, and fostering discovery in the lives of middle and high school students. This scholarship would help me complete my Master’s degree in School Leadership and achieve every goal.