In a world where I feel like everything was trying to fit me into a box, and the trends happening around me were constantly changing, it was hard to think about what made me unique.
I dye my hair a different color once every year because it's a goal of mine to be able to say that I've had every color in the rainbow. I also love "princesscore" and "fairycore" fashion, which were both aesthetic fashion trends on TikTok at one point. I prefer alternative and punk/rock music over excessively cheesy pop music, and I decided to become a singer because I believed it would be easy. My grandmother also told me one day that I had a beautiful voice, which is still a moment that sticks with me.
I could list off more "unique" things about myself, but it's not those attributes themselves that make me unique. It's the combination of all these attributes, personal experiences, and memories that truly make me, and anybody else, unique.
Everyone has probably been asked at one point in one of these essays how they plan to give back to the community, and if I'm truly being honest, I don't know. I would be lying to myself, and you if I said that I had hopes to make the world a better place or that I wanted to give money back to my community. Thinking about it now though, my best answer is this: I want to create a safe space for people who maybe don't know where they fit in life.
I was lucky enough that I knew what I wanted to do from a young age, but I was embarrassed to say that I chose my path in life because someone complimented me. Even worse, I was motivated by the idea of being rich and maybe even being the first millionaire in my family. Not everyone immediately thinks about giving back to their community, because they need to worry about themselves first before they can even do that. I think we need to normalize the idea that, not everyone has lofty goals when they first start, some people don't even know what they want to do yet! I would love a scholarship that asked about myself and how I plan to improve instead of the faraway goal of giving back to my community.
But, I digress, music has always been a safe space for me to feel any of my feelings and realize that taking life so seriously by conforming to society's expectations of me will just drive me crazy. Letting society dictate what kind of plans I should have for the future and forcing me into making lofty goals that I know I will never follow through on just leads to a whole lot of lying. Lying to myself, and to you, the person reading this application. How many essays have you read with generic answers about donating, creating scholarships, volunteering, or starting an organization to help others? What makes each of those essays unique is the person behind the computer writing them, not any attribute, or goal to give back to their community. That's what I want to help people see and help them feel safe admitting.