Stepping into the airport a strange sensation developed within me - fear. A fear unlike any other, it wasn’t spiders or heights. I was now scared of not meeting expectations. I feared not being enough.
The opportunity of a lifetime had come my way: a chance to play the sport I loved overseas at the age of seventeen, among seasoned athletes. These women had played internationally and in college, while my most competitive experience was playing for a high school State Title. Doubt consumed me; what could I offer this team? Adding to the pressure, I had never been away from my family for more than two days, but now, I faced a whole month in a foreign country with strangers I had known for less than two months. The thought of being so far from my family shattered me.
Boarding the plane intensified my doubts. Why was I here? What was I doing? I felt like an imposter. As the plane took off, there were no familiar faces to share the moment with; instead, I was alone with my anxious thoughts. Normally planes bought me joy because I knew I would be surrounded by people I loved. The only thing that plane ride that accompanied me were my thoughts of doubt.
Our team was the first to arrive, allowing us to choose where we stayed. However, the resort was far from the paradise we envisioned. The empty pool, no air conditioning, and no water or plumbing issues led us to switch rooms multiple times. The limited food options and overall cleanliness was even worse. Frustrated, I called my mom again, but her answer remained firm. She believed this experience would boost my personal growth.
Back home, the support of my family and friends transformed my mindset. Realizing there was no escape, I decided to "fake it till I made it." A shift in perspective turned my experience from negative to positive.
I'm grateful for this unique experience at such a young age. It taught me that, like the plane I boarded, I had to take off from my negative mindset. This journey highlighted the power of a change in perspective to overcome obstacles. The journey also showed me that I have resilience that will follow me to my next chapter of my life.
It has always been a dream of mine to attend college and further my education in health/science. This is due to my desire to help others and my urge to provide the care and treatment for those around me. My passion for health and helping others has pushed me to want to share my passion so they can live a long and prosperous life.
My educational aspirations consist of acquiring a bachelor’s degree in Exercise Science that would assist me in pursuing a career where I am able to go into the elementary schools and teach children, as well as parents, about healthy eating, and the importance about being physically active. Also, as a strong bi-racial female, is the ability to work with Pro-Athletes, I want to be able to implement and evaluate the treatment and care they may need to continue to compete at a high level. Nutrition is an important part of sport performance for athletes, in addition to allowing for optimal growth and development.
In conclusion, stepping into the airport filled me with fear and self-doubt as I embarked on a unique journey. While the initial challenges were overwhelming, the support of my loved ones and a change in perspective allowed me to transform a negative experience into an opportunity for personal growth.