Losing my great grandmother was one of the hardest things had to face this past year. I had never lost anyone close to me so before so grief was definitely a new experience for me. I didn’t know how to process my emotions. I hadn’t seen her in about 2 years because of school and time and ended up seeing her one more time a week before she past not knowing she would be leaving this earth the day after my birthday. It was difficult to celebrate knowing that someone I held close to me was no longer here .It was a very bittersweet moment not seeing her in so long and then seeing her on hospice care. I didn’t know how to cope with my emotions of not seeing her sooner but in moments of pain my faith in god truly became my anchor. Even when it doesn’t makes sense God timing is always perfect and I had to remind myself of that. There was a reason I was able to see her one last time before she left that it wasn’t just a coincidence. Ive never been big on prayer because I never knew where to start or what to say, But in a moment like this I knew there was only one person to turn to. I’ve talked to God about my grief and regrets of not seeing her sooner. I found a bit of comfort in knowing that my grandma was no longer in pain anymore that she was in a place of peace and that our bond wasn’t broken just because she wasn’t physically here. My faith helped me focus on the appreciation rather than loss. Instead dwelling on her passing I looked back on the memories my family and I shared at her house . It was the heart of everything from holidays, birthdays , graduation parties , proms , and just regular visits where everyone felt welcome. No matter what was going on we always knew we could come to her home. She created a sense of unity that made our family feel whole. Losing her wasn’t just losing a loved one it felt like losing the foundation of our family. But through faith, I hold onto the love she built keeping her spirit alive in how we stay connected. That belief gives me strength helping me carry her love and memory with me as I continue forward in life.