When I was just a small girl, I was always interested in the "gross" aspects of medicine. I always watched shows such as "Monsters Inside Me," "Untold Stories of the ER," and "Dr. G: Medical Examiner". I was so intrigued by the way the body works and insane situations that could happen to someone, such as an axe in the head. Kind of weird, right? But that was just the kind of kid I was: always interested in abnormal and "gross" things.
As I got older, I was determined to become a doctor. I wanted to be in the ER, taking an axe out of someone's head, and saving their life. When I started researching how to become a doctor at the end of middle school, I realized how much work it would take to get there. I wanted to start a family somewhat early on in life, and knew going to medical school would take time and would cost a lot of money- money that I might not have by then. The thought of being in debt terrified me; I wanted to be able to financially take care of myself and my family once the time came. So, I tried looking into different career choices.
I thought going into sports marketing would be exciting: I could travel nationwide, meet all kinds of people, and watch sports games. But, what difference would I make? Would I make an impact on anyone's life? So, I looked into interior designing, psychology, fashion design, animation, and much more. Nothing that I looked into really gave my heart that "spark" that I had when I looked into becoming a doctor. So I pondered, and reflected, and pondered some more. I was terrified that I would never get to do something that I really enjoyed.
Then, it hit me like a flashbang. Blinding, but I felt that "spark" that I've been looking for. The medical field provides numerous careers, such as nursing. I could still be involved with surgeries and patient care, but I wouldn't have to be in school as long. Becoming a nurse would allow me to grow a closer connection with patients, since nurses work countless hours a day one-on-one with patients.
Over the years I've worked with my community and realized that helping others is my passion. As a nurse, I have the opportunity to make patients feel comfortable and safe in a hospital. I could be a nurse that a child remembers reading a book to them in a hospital, or an older person remembering me for having conversations with them daily since no one visited them. I want to make sure that others feel secure in a hospital and know that they will be taken care of.
I eventually want to earn my masters in nurse practitioning as well. I am determined to change the environment for nursing. As of right now, some nurses face overworking, lack of encouragement and gratitude from their administration, overwhelming amounts of pressure from patients and authorities, and poor media representation. I would like to work with hospital administrations and change the way that nurses are seen from society and their authorities.
I feel that a part of me has always wanted to be in the medical field, but I denied it for so long. My parents have poured overwhelming support into me for years, and I couldn't have made this decision without them. Yes, being a nurse would allow me to dive into the "gross" aspects of medicine, but it would allow me to help others- something I dream of doing.