Hello, my name is India Khanna, and I am no stranger to suicide.
Growing up, suicide was a thought that ran through the minds of my peers, as well as my own, as a way to escape the unfortunate circumstances through which we were living. Whether it was emotional or physical neglect, abuse, bullying, etc. we were all looking for a way out. These thoughts weighed heavily on our minds, and we had no "trusted adults" to confide in. We were afraid of the news getting back to our respective families. We were terrified of the consequences of thinking those thoughts. We were stuck.
As I grew older, I continued to struggle with thoughts of suicide. Throughout all of this, I knew that something needed to be done. Through my heavy thought process into why we, as small children, were thinking such drastic thoughts, I concluded that it was because we had no one. No one to talk to, no one to trust, no one to help. From that point of revelation, I made it my mission to become the "trusted adult" someday. I strayed from the path now and again, but I always found my way back.
I took the psychology courses in high school and undergraduate university, I read the papers and watched the video retellings of stories from everyday people, and I involved myself in the community to learn more about what my peers needed and wanted out of mental health and healing. I put forth all of the energy that I had into trying to make my communities better places to be because I believed that it was the first step in changing the world. No matter how big or small, I was going to change somebody's world.
Now, I am 24 years old and working through my master's degree in clinical mental health counseling. Thinking back to all that I have done and the action steps that I have taken to secure better mental health practices among my communities, my next course of action is to become better versed in mental health in the professional sphere as well as advocacy work. Making a positive impact on mental health within our society, and even the world, consists of not only knowing your communities but the communities that exist elsewhere also. While I am learning theories and how they are applied in counseling through my courses, I believe theory is good for thought and action is good for practice.
Positive impacts come from a combination of thought, action, and collaboration. As I am going through graduate school and continuing my personal goals and efforts of making a positive impact on my communities, I have the same question running through my mind: how can I be of service to those who need help now? I think back to my elementary school peers and how stuck we were in the relentless cycle of suicidal ideation, attempts, and so on. I, as well as others in the mental health field, must do for them what we needed when we were younger.
Hello again. My name is India Khanna. I am a person who has lost a friend to suicide, survived suicide, and will work towards reducing suicide rates in marginalized communities if it is the last thing I do. Underrepresented communities need help, and I am determined to be that help no matter what.