Depression is a silent killer that can affect anyone, regardless of age, gender, or social status. For young people at their prime in life, the experience of depression can be particularly devastating as they navigate through the challenges of growing up and finding their place in the world. For me, the battle with depression became the catalyst for discovering my inner strength and a passion for championing public health issues.
Growing up, I always felt a constant struggle to fit in and find my place in school and sometimes with my family. I felt isolated and alone, and when the Global Pandemic shut down access to the world outside of my bubble, these feelings of loneliness and insecurity quickly turned into depression. I found myself withdrawing from the people and activities I once loved, and my relationships with my family began to suffer. The outlet I had once found with my friends was suddenly gone and my mental health declined rapidly. I felt like there was no escape from the dark cloud that was constantly hanging over my head.
As a black woman, I came to realize that the subject of mental health is not really talked about in my community. Often times mental health is perceived as a weakness and shrouded as an inability to handle your problems. To talk about your problems out loud is stigmatized and we surely do not publicize the need for help. Breaking free of these constraints was hard. I realized that I needed to take control of my life and fight back against my depression. The first step was seeing a therapist and opening up about my struggles. With the help of the therapist and my family, I began to understand that I was not alone and that there were resources available to help me as I struggled to connect. I also learned how to challenge my negative thoughts and develop coping skills to manage my symptoms.
As I started to feel better, I also discovered a new sense of purpose. I became passionate about public health and the importance of addressing mental health issues, especially for young people. As we came out of the pandemic and my family started expanding our bubble, I realized that I had a unique perspective and a valuable voice in my community, and I felt compelled to use my experiences to help others.
Adversity has a profound impact on shaping human existence. It challenges people to face their fears and limitations, helps them to grow and develop in ways that they never thought possible, and has forged a pathway for me as a new goal. Through adversity, I’ve developed resilience and strength, and am able to gain a deeper understanding of myself and my place in the world. Through my personal struggle, I had to learn how to cope with difficult situations and emotions. Each week, my sessions focused on helping me to face challenges and find new ways to manage my thoughts and feelings, and to develop a sense of inner strength. As time lapsed, I became more self-reliant and independent, and pretty soon I was starting to develop a greater sense of personal responsibility. I know it is possible to grow through mental illness.
I entered the pandemic as a junior in high school and through the fog of depression I found myself a freshman in college. As I reflect on the time lost, I realize just how important those years are for many more in my community. Coming back to school and seeing my peers also opened my eyes to the fact that so many others experienced their own storms during the lockdown. Some shared, others did not, but we all felt a need to have someone listen.
The pandemic has changed me. I missed out on what most people consider the most important years in high school and was forced to get used to a new normal.
I have since decided to pursue a career in public relations, and aspire to become an advocate for mental health awareness. It is only through dialogue that we heal. I’ve built a platform for myself via social media and have used my platform as an outlet during the height of the pandemic to promote mental well-being. I along with many young people find joy in music and share that joy in a fandom. I am the resident counselor for my friend group and I use my experiences to connect with others to help them navigate their own mental health journeys. I know how important it is to just listen and so I am just that, a listener.
Through my hard work and dedication to getting back to good health, I know that I not only overcame depression but have also found a calling in life. I realized that the struggles made me stronger and that I have the power to make a difference in my world and in the world. The silver lining of the battle with depression was that it gave me a new perspective and a drive to spread joy, champion mental health issues, and help others who are struggling.
This personal journey from depression to advocacy serves as a powerful reminder that no matter how difficult life may seem, it is possible to overcome adversity and find a new sense of purpose.
The struggle has shaped me to see the importance of seeking help when struggling and has pushed me to fight for our mental well-being and the health of my community.