I speak three languages: English, Chinese, and Music. Being born into a Chinese family, the former two languages came naturally. I started learning my third language at six when watching a DVD concert with my parents. Enticed by the virtuosity of the musicians and the pure timbre of the piano, I began taking piano lessons. Thanks to my teacher who always pushed me beyond my perceived limits, my musical path looked very promising. Nonetheless, I never felt that playing piano was the main focus of my life. Even when my friends asked, I never elaborated on my musical ability. To me, music was a safe haven where I could go on blissful adventures, and I’d wanted to keep those emotions personal.
As I grew older and developed other interests, my time was divided among a grid of extra-curriculars. Piano playing was such a big part of me that I knew it would always be there, but it didn’t shine like it used to. The spirit I once possessed was slowly leaving me. As I continued to mature, I saw my commitment as more of a weight to drag me down than a stage to elevate me. That is, until the pandemic hit.
My overloaded schedule with school, marching band, and volunteer work instantly diminished with the shelter-in-place order. As I paid off some sleep debt, my interests and curiosities were revived. I started to spend more time on the piano. I was even looking forward to the summer concert my friends and I would be hosting. Well, almost. The concert was a fundraising event we had organized and performed in since ninth grade. The donation this year would go to a local charity that helped the homeless. Seeing the persistence of the pandemic during the summer, we had considered cancelling the concert. But finally we agreed to hold it online, though I was dubious about the voluntary donation. Flaws in my past performances haunted me. What if I did not meet the audience’s expectations and brought down the donation? Yet, “the show must go on.” I decided the only solution was to practice arduously and present my best self during the performance.
The recording sessions were more stressful than I imagined, but the greatest drawback was the lack of tacit support from the audience. I felt like I was performing in a vacuum without any emotional vibes. Amazingly, the concert turned out to be very well received. Never had I felt such a sense of accomplishment as when I read blocks of text from my friends, detailing their thoughts and sincere appreciation. As an unexpected benefit of a virtual concert, we were able to reach out to many more people and fundraised 2,700 dollars. Not only did we surpass our donation goal by 35%, but the amount was almost double those of preceding concerts.
On reflection, I felt so proud to be able to contribute, and I found new significance in my piano playing. The challenges of COVID-19 allowed me to gain new insights. I felt raised by my friends’ unconditional support, and saw that my passion in music was something others could enjoy just as I had. By illuminating my talents, I could draw attention to important causes and help my society. Instead of my retreat, piano playing had become my spotlight.
2020 was a year of disruption: an agenda filled with martial arts and percussion competitions, SAT exams, and a driving test was suddenly wiped out. Nevertheless, it was also a year of self-revelation: putting in an earnest heart can resolve even the toughest situations. Thankfully, years of piano playing has taught me to be perseverant, and imparted me with a mindset I could rely on in tough times. With music as a key by my side, I will always have a way to unlock the door in the face of life’s hardships.
Regarding my area of study, I have always had dreams to help people. To me, there is nothing more fulfilling than being able to benefit others in need. My strongest interest in life lies in music, whether it be performing it, learning it, or simply sharing it with others. Along with psychology, music can make a great impact. The benefits of music therapy fit very well with my own interests, as I enjoy spreading music and supporting people at the same time. Music is a unique medium that allows me to communicate with people from all walks of life.
A strong sense of purpose is the most important thing in reaching out to help people. I strive to instill people with kindness and a peace of mind. I hope to work as a music therapist at best, or at least be a therapist in the social services field.