Regardless of my surroundings, I consistently experience a sense of not belonging. My friends sometimes don't feel like my actual friends; I feel like I am just talking to myself ("talk to myself in the mirror"), and because of these things, I tend to not open up to other people easily. I am very social, but when I try to create new friendships with people, they usually don't last. I have had times where I am too social, and people don't give me the amount of time I give back. Because of this, "I Might Say Something Stupid" by Charli XCX is my favorite song on the "brat" album. Last year, I learned how my time is wasted. I was very social towards people I shouldn't have been, so I felt like people didn't care about me. Despite all of the effort I was putting towards them, the effort was not being reciprocated in any way back. "Wear these clothes as a disguise" is how I feel even when I just go to a grocery store. I am worried that someone from my school might see me, so I always change into a better-looking outfit in case I run into someone. "'I look perfect for the background" described how I felt in these moments. I always want to be included. It felt like no one made the effort to include me as I did them. This is when I decided I needed to change my mindset and my priorities. "I go so cold" is truly how I have become. I started to back out of wanting friendships with other people because I didn't know if they would drop me after a couple of months like so many other people did. When people try to include me, I always feel like they are insincere or might drop me soon, so it wouldn't matter if I joined the party or not. If I did show up, would they even acknowledge me? Or would they acknowledge me for a couple of minutes and then forget about me to the point where I don't even feel like I belong? "Let in but still outside" is a lyric from the song that resonated with me. Was I just another person who was nice to them so they could use my kindness for their personal ego gain? It was hard to tell if they were being genuine. "I look perfect for the background" symbolizes people's reputations for me. I look good for them, but they don't care about me at the end of the day. In conclusion, "I might say something stupid" is my favorite because it is nice to know I am not the only one who feels like the only one when people try to include me. Charli was very authentic in this song, which made me feel well-connected with her as well.