Trying to understand the world around me through the lens of poor mental health is like trying to drive through fog. Sometimes the hindrance to driving is great as the fog settles in, feet from my car. Other times the fog is light, and I can almost forget it as I appreciate the mountain views. Fog also has a tendency of making you feel alone as you drive or walk, blocking out light and the road ahead. The difference between the mind and fog is that fog has consistent rules. The function of the cognitive mind has only recently been truly studied and begun to be understood. Playing a silent role throughout history, mental health in the social science fields encompass and are intertwined with the developments of modern medicine, religion, government, and economics. It has also shown up in the works of Morelli’s moral statistics, and Freud’s human development theories, to stages of population growth and viable therapy options. Especially as mental health issues become associated with addiction and heavy drug use, many feel that it is pointless to even try to parse what they feel and why they cope with it in certain ways. Thanks to the more recent public shift of opinion that mental health is important and does affect our everyday lives, it is easier to understand. Everything about mental health is transitioning to something positive, representing human diversity. Even with such a deep history, it is still relatively new and always changing.
Underdeveloped study of the mind has led many to conclude that anything that is new and unknown can be perceived as dangerous or bad, but the pursuit of better mental health is seeking to combat that attitude. Through my personal experience with anxiety, depression, ADHD, and OCD, as well as the support of bipolar disorder and schizophrenia in extended family, I know how easy it is to get lost in the fog. For a long time, I didn’t understand the rules of these low flying clouds that blocked out my friends, family, and all the activities I enjoyed. Eventually, I did not even realize that the fog was outside at all, and it became a part of my life. After living with poor mental health, everything lovely did not exist beyond the sea of gray. But, just like the fog, I had a period that it all lifted. I realized that the fog was not me and there is hope. My goals went from how do I get from one mile to the next without falling off some cliff to what is the best route to the beach, knowing that it's only 20 miles until I’m off this mountain and with loved ones who cheered me on. Mental struggle pushed me towards a short-term me-focused mentality. With healing, I used long-term others-oriented lifestyle changes that helped to clear the fog. Healing is not easy, and neither is accepting help. When you’re lost and alone, anything you hear apart from what you tell yourself in the fog seems to be an illusion. But sometimes this voice is a call from someone who cares and wants to walk with you on the way out. Whether it be a friend or a family member, a shower, or a church community, you can’t hear and appreciate that there is something that helps. It is a continually isolating cycle of isolation and negative self-talk.
My experience with religion also helped to shape my mental health experience, as well as begin to heal it. With a warped value system for life, I did not appreciate that I was made special and loved. It didn’t make sense that I was feeling so lonely and numb while someone also cared enough to give the birds song and petals color. Truly where my radical change occurred was when I was carried out in the loving arms of God, totally selflessly and lovingly counter to my own attitude. Healing was furthered by the gentle guidance of loved ones and challenge of others. Sometimes this meant taking a different route or a road buddy to pass the travel time. This didn’t mean bad weather was unavoidable, but that it was no longer endless and void.
If I want to pursue a career involving mental health, this calls for literacy in the lives of my community, and active participation in organizations that seek to understand and solve problems. In my everyday life, I can be someone who empathizes with a friend’s struggle, cares for the less fortunate, is active in my church, and shares the benefits of seeking help for mental struggle. As someone who has previously struggled with mental health, I know how scary it can be. Thanks to kind people and knowledgeable teachers, I now know more about why my brain reacts the way it does to stress. This can be the testimony of many others, but most will not have access without misinformation and fearmongering to work with their brain, not against it. I want to make a way for others to understand with words and tools that make it manageable and accessible. Through my experience with mental challenges, I am able to better empathize with those who also struggle and be a witness that braving the fog is possible. The vast gray isn't gone, but the world is big and beautiful and bright, and the fog is just a cloud.