From a young age, I was in the gym. My mother was a volleyball coach, my father was a basketball coach, and I was their manager, spending countless hours filling water bottles and shagging balls, patiently waiting for my turn to take the court in high school.
When that time finally came, I was broken by the news that I couldn’t play due to three different foot injuries, which sidelined me from both volleyball and basketball freshman year. Being an athlete had always been part of my identity and without it I was completely lost and left wondering, why me?
This was the first experience I ever had with mental health. Without sports, I had no motivation to do anything, even get out of my bed, and I was constantly feeling empty and tired. Prior to my injury, I had never heard about athletes suffering from depression, anxiety, or eating disorders because athletes are praised for being some of the toughest people in the world, and weakness is commonly associated with mental illness. I felt like I was the only person going through this type of pain.
A year after my injury, I still didn’t understand how it was part of my purpose. That is until my best friend Avery tore her ACL. By describing how she felt about her situation, she put into words the pain that I had hid, and she made me realize that we cannot be the only two athletes in the world that have felt this type of pain, but were silenced by the negative stigma that is placed around mental illness and mental health.
At that moment I realized that I wanted to help people like Avery and myself, but, like I mentioned before, sports is part of my identity and is something I’ll always want to be around. I never thought that a sport administration degree could go with a psychology degree. I actually thought psychology and sports were at different ends of the spectrum. That is until I realized how common mental illness is in athletes. Simone Biles in the 2021 Olympics had a huge influence on me and helped me recognize that mental health is a problem athletes at all ages and levels face. I believe that Simone took a huge step in breaking the negative stigma surrounding the issue, and her choice to put her and her own health first has pushed many NFL, MLB, and collegiate teams to start hiring a “team psychologist” to help the athletes with their mindset, mental toughness, and constant pressure to perform well.
Being an athlete--especially one who has experienced what it feels to be sidelined--I am very familiar with all of these struggles, and I believe that studying psychology along with sport administration will better help me understand how the mind of an athlete works and how the sport-industry environment affects them, in hopes that one day I can help be a resource to athletes that have gone through similar things as me.
My struggles have not only helped shape me into the caring and thoughtful person I am today, but they have also paved a path for my future, which will hopefully consist of working to improve the mental health of others, especially athletes.