Growing up as a relatively unathletic student in a district that idolizes the best sportspersons, no matter their attitude, I often felt poorly of myself. With an almost guaranteed bench spot, I dropped volleyball. Shortly thereafter, I dropped basketball. Sophomore year of high school, however, I would make a pivotal decision. I joined the cross-country team. Starting in August, we practiced long and hard. My first ever meet proved successful, although the time I ran was considerably slower than other girls on the team. I was lucky to run anything under 26:00. I was the 7th runner on the team–out of 7. I made it to state through guaranteed entry, as 7 runners were required on a team. The following year I saw practically the same results. The final summer before senior year, something changed in me. I began summer training. I ran almost every day, followed by a heavy lifting session. Some days, I felt overwhelmingly unmotivated. Normally, I pushed past this initial feeling, knowing that it would pay off if I just did it, and it truly did. June and July came and went, and I was ready for actual practice to begin. There is no better feeling than feeling strong when you run, especially at practice. Currently, my personal record is a 22:40, which is an astonishing 2 minutes faster than last year. I’ve found my peace in running, and I could not be more grateful.
My entire childhood I was told that I had a ‘loud’ personality. I never thought much of this, until people directed these comments toward me with harmful intent. I cried often and had a difficult time controlling mean and angry outbursts. My entire life I have battled against mental illness, which has ultimately pivoted my whole existence. I began counseling at a young age and began talking with my school counselor regularly in the 5th grade. In 2020, during the Covid-19 pandemic, I developed a severe eating disorder. This led to a noticeable decline in my physical and academic performance. However, it was May 29th, 2022 that truly changed my outlook on life, and would mark the beginning of my mental health journey. After something as simple as a relationship that led me astray, and ultimately ended in disaster, I battled against a wave of depression. I attempted to take my own life. Fortunately, I survived. Lying in the hospital bed in the early hours of the morning, I decided that I was done letting my mental illness control me.
I began attending regular counseling and taking medications to treat my disorders. After this experience, I decided to use my loud personality to advocate for others who may be in the same position I was once in. I attended and ended up leading the Wyoming Call for Youth Mental Health Panel, which was an amazing experience. I shared my various ideas on how better support may be offered in school districts, and why mental health is becoming so important in this age. I am a part of Big Brother Big Sister of Wyoming, which focuses on helping children struggling with social skills, education, and of course, mental health. Again, this is something I really enjoy doing and I feel like I am making a difference, even if it is just for one child. Additionally, at the moment I am shadowing an elementary school counselor. Currently, she has me leading group therapy sessions, and teaching various guidance lessons.
I believe that with the combination of my empathic personality, my advocacy, and my intelligence, I could change how the world views mental illnesses. The features of various disorders do not define anybody, and I want the world to know that. I am getting an education so I can spread this word. I am getting an education so I can help people. I am getting an education so I can save lives. I have worked vigorously, and my aspiration is to obtain my master's degree in Social Work. I am striving to become a rehabilitation counselor who helps recovering addicts. Mental illness is a rising issue in America, and many people just need a support system. With the right educational program, I can become everything that somebody may need, and that would be the most rewarding gift of all.