Do you remember the last time you laughed, screamed, or cried in response to a movie or T.V show? That was the result of long hours and careful deliberation of cinematic artists and is something I aspire to achieve as an animator. For my future goals, I plan to attend college so that with my films I will make a profound connection to wide audiences, invoking genuine emotion, digging into the roots of the human experience, causing personal reflection to build a greater understanding of oneself and in doing so aid in audiences connecting with others in our world. Resulting in the promotion of peace, acceptance, and inclusion. The beautiful thing about film is that it is visual and audible literature, making film as powerful as books. In this way the quote by Cassandra Clare, “One must be careful of books and what is in them, for words have the power to change us.” is just as applicable to any movie or T.V show; and, just like books, film impacts each individual in a unique and personal way.
As an animator my name would appear among the thousands more in the credits at the end of a movie. And I prefer it that way. There is something powerful and pure in impacting someone for the better without care for recognition. This is a concept I learned from being on the receiving end of such kindness. In middle school I was sitting at a table with a group of kids who were chatting away. One girl, an upperclassman whom I did not know very well, noticed that I was being especially quiet. With some concern, she asked if I was okay. “Yeah…” I said. Her questioning gaze persisted. “I’m ok, my grandma passed away yesterday.” I spit out the words trying not to choke on them. The table got very quiet. I averted my gaze and was blinking away tears. She stood up, walked toward me, stooped down, and hugged me. I do not remember her name, but I remember the kindness she showed to a nerdy social outcast. It was a seemingly simple action but it was profound to me. It was a moment of honesty, transparency, comfort, and human connection, addressing grief as part of the human experience. I want to be like that. My name is not remembered, but my impact is. I want my work to change lives for the better. Even if it is just one individual, I may not have changed the whole world, but I changed theirs.
Animation as my career would allow me to impact lives by shifting perspectives into places of greater knowledge and understanding, where deep connection flourishes. The change I want to create, through my films, is one of better understanding of self, thereby aiding in the understanding of others, fostering acceptance, inclusion and peace in our world.
In terms of my need for financial assistance, I have worked hard in an attempt to save up and find money for my college education. During the summers, as soon as I was able to drive, I worked long hours caring for multiple species of animals, milking goats, assisting in kiddings (goat births), dairy production, cleaning, sanitizing, and landscaping at Good Pasture Farm. We live 30 minutes away from the nearest town of any size, so employment options are limited and my low wage is not proportional to the cost of gasoline. Now that summer has ended, I spend the large majority of my free time studying, and applying for scholarships while also babysitting my siblings, as my parents are usually working. We do not have any trust funds or wealthy family members to assist with expenses. My parents will have two children in college simultaneously and by the time my youngest sister enters high school they will be of retirement age.
I have been proactive, working just as hard in my education as I have at my job. Attending honors and college classes, I’ve committed myself to my studies in order to fill my future with as many opportunities as possible. I am currently attending CSU-P and I’ve earned college credit at other colleges including: UCCS, PCC, and CU Denver. This is in the hopes that I will be able to be efficient in earning my degree and least burdensome to myself, and especially to my family. My hope is that my parents' support may be reserved as much as possible for my three younger siblings, who also expect to attend college. It is my intention to pay for my own education in order to relieve that burden from my parents and allow my sisters’ to have the most freedom available in choosing their futures, without having to be consumed with monetary anxieties.