When I was in the third grade, without warning, I had this overwhelming fear. Fear of not seeing my parents, fear of not being with them, fear of going to school, etc. I am thankful my parents and staff at my school saw my fear and got me immediate assistance. I was referred for counseling by my pediatrician and began going two time a week for social anxiety, which I termed "my worries." I remember being scared at first. But through counseling, therapy homework, support from my family and school, I was able to become empowered and and manage my anxiety. I learned coping strategies that helped calm me while building confidence in social situations. It was through this that I was able to gain a stronger sense of self-awareness and resilience. As I got older, I have continued to use these strategies I was taught at a young age when faced with stressful situations that increase "my worries."
Often I hear people talk about anxiety with such negativity. I am thankful that with adversity, help was provided to me in a safe and meaningful way. I learned the power of support and connection, how just feeling heard can be so helpful.
It was through this experience that as I got older and began thinking of a future career, I knew I wanted to help others as I had been. This experience sparked a desire to help others facing similar challenges and shaped my goal of becoming a social worker.
A little over a year ago, I unexpectedly lost my maternal grandfather. The loss continues to still be challenging emotionally as he was such a huge part of me and my family’s life. My Papa Bob taught me the importance of hard work, volunteering in your community, and putting your loved ones first. He and my grandmother made every band concert, sporting event and birthday for me and my sister. Watching how he treated others around him shaped how I treat others. My Papa always talked about The Golden Rule, of doing onto others as you would wish done unto you. His sudden passing made me realize the importance of life and cherishing the time with loved ones. I try to not take a single moment for granted. I let those around me know how much I appreciated them and love them. The support of my family, friends and community has helped me navigate this difficult time. My Papa's positive influence continues as a source of motivation to work hard and reach my goals of graduating from college and help others through social work.
Two months ago, I lost a cousin to a battle with acute myeloid leukemia. She battled this horrible cancer for over two years. She was diagnosed only two months after her wedding, while she was in her second year of medical school. For the last two years, she fought cancer courageously. Kenzie fought hard with her faith in God helping keep her grounded. She voiced how God had a plan for her, she wasn't fully sure what it was, but she knew he did. She was determined to fight while finding a way to positively impact others. She believed we are all granted an opportunity as we navigate our lives to make an impact. Kenzie wanted to live a meaningful life in any way she could. Since cancer put a halt on her goals of completing medical school and becoming a doctor, she looked to other ways of doing this. During her journey of battling ALS, Kenzie was courageous with a positive attitude. She has made an impact on this world through a Mantra Project, interviews on television/internet, writing a book of poems, and drawings of art work. Kenzie's lasting impact is felt by myself, our entire family, her husband, her friends, and thousands of complete strangers. I feel blessed to have grown up with such an amazing cousin, who despite our almost ten year age difference, was always there for me.
Losing both of these influential people in my life in such a short period of time has definitely been a significant loss in my life. Their loss has helped me find a deeper understanding of love, faith and resilience. Their lives will forever shape me because of their values they impacted on me.
One of my strongest qualities that will greatly help me in this journey is empathy. I genuinely care for others and are a good listener. I am thankful for such a positive experience in the past myself with counseling. I am also a goal driven person, resilient to not give up and work towards my goals. Because of my parents, grandparents, and sister, I have a strong drive to help others, especially in my community. These strengths will greatly help me in my career as a social worker.
At times, I can become stressed by situations, taking more emotional responsibility of others. Counseling has taught me the importance of setting boundaries, which will be essential working as a social worker.
Debt from student loans is drowning so many college students in the United States. The goal of obtaining higher education is to improve one's quality of life and allow access to more stable jobs. However, the rising student debt amounts often have negative effects on one's life, such as their mental health. I have worked full-time in the summer months since I was 14 years old, saving money for college. This will help decrease future student loan debt. My goal is to continue working in the summer months when I go to college and invest this money into my college degree. This will not be enough to cover costs, so I am looking into scholarship opportunities such as this. My parents are also able to assist in paying for a small portion of the costs of my degree, but nowhere enough to cover the full costs.