For some time now, I have felt a calling to be a leader in ministry. I am in love with the idea of serving the church body and anyone that needs to be loved with the same Gospel of truth that we have received. I have a very strong desire to make known the message of redemption, and that can be done through ministry. I am especially passionate about the idea of serving through music, which I believe to be one of the most, if not the most, universal and transformative tool for spreading any kind of important message to many people at once. We see this transformative power, not only in church gatherings and worship, but in large music festivals, political rallies, school band, orchestra and solo performances and recitals, sports ceremonies, and even worldwide events like the Olympics. Music is a vessel for messages that need to be known. I am learning more and more, how music can be used to spiritually to counsel others, which can prepare people to wholeheartedly accept the message of salvation. Music is already being used medically and therapeutically and has been proven to heal and help you focus. I desire to use music to focus people on the hope that comes from knowing the Word of God and experiencing His gospel power and true long-lasting healing in their own lives. Now, I am taking the steps needed to be prepared to bring music to communities in need of a hope. First, I am studying music theory and composition in college, gaining the practical skill and experience needed. Then, I am putting those skills into practice by serving in my church's music ministry. In addition, I am being prepared to lead in ministry, discovering what it means to lead in music and in ministry-work in my field, learning what it means to put other's needs before your own, in humility and with the heart of a servant. I am being counseled myself to have the right character, and I am starting to make financial decisions that are preparing me to manage a ministry financially. Another desire I have for ministry is to equip others musically, to teach it to underprivileged children in low-income communities, who are in need of the Gospel, as well as other practical needs. Me and my girlfriend are serving in a local ministry with children, and music is a big part of our work there. I want to expand on that, and train others to bless children with music and its instruction. This spreads an awareness of true love and the Gospel to people at a very young age, meaning they will grow up knowing it if their faith continues to be grown. Me and my partner desire to make a deep, long-lasting spiritual impact on our communities, and in the lives of children. We plan to continue to learn, and grow in our own faith, to ensure that our vision of ministry becomes a blessing to many people's lives. We hope it grows, and outlasts us, leading to many transformed lives and disciples being made for the Gospel. I am filled with joy to have this vision, and I am starting to see the plans unfold before me. I will continue to prepare in faith, looking for opportunities to grow and begin the ministry work.

I have had a profound love for music for the past twenty years, my life. I always go to music as a means to comfort, inspiration, and a sense of joy, despite what difficult moments I have lived through, even the most demanding. I believe that this love for music will not be in vain, and it will impact the rest my educational, career, and my life. I desire to channel this love into my own future musical education and career, impacting other's lives through my own music compositions. I was raised in a family that is creative and really appreciates music. Many in my family have a similar fascination, including my mom. She sensed this in me and signed me up for piano lessons with a local teacher when I was nine. This would be the beginning of a lasting love for music. I would end up going to weekly piano lessons for around two years, gaining the fundamentals on music theory and piano performance. I decided to stop going to my weekly lessons soon after. I was growing up and things began to change. I began distracted with other things, and my mental state diminished. I grew into an angry adolescent and did not have music at the top of my mind. My priorities were set elsewhere, and I would abandon piano playing for years. Around my second year of High school, I dropped. I felt like a misfit, and could not find a sense of identity and belonging at my school, so I decided to leave. Before I left, I took a basic music introduction class, that I actually seemed to enjoy, but it wasn't anything much. Maybe this is when things started to change once again. I returned to alternative school after battling with anxiety and poor mental health for a while, and I began to focus. I discovered the possibility of studying music in college, and I was very interested. So interested, that I made my "Future Vision" presentation about my returning love for music and the arts, and how I wanted to use music as a means to better other people's mental and spiritual lives. I applied to a nearby conservatory, made my first compositions for the application, and took on piano again, as it was a requirement to learn some repertoire for the application as well. My mental health improved, as I started taking better care of my mental and spiritual health. I graduated as valedictorian of my class, with a focus for growing as a person, and musician. I now began to desire doing more than receiving or listening to music for comfort and passion, but to create it, with a purpose that I think is important. Many people struggle with mental health issues, and I want to show people that there is hope through my music compositions. I am now entering my third year of college, and I am now going to begin my in-depth studies of music composition and theory and am closer to getting a bachelor's degree for it. I have also taken on jazz piano, and am also interested in conducting music. My focus and passion has grown, and I will soon make connection in the industry of music. I look back on the years when was at my worst, realizing that my love for music was still there, but hidden inside a lot of confusion and struggle. I want to make the most out of my degree, and leave an impact on my community, and if I can, beyond. First, I need to continue to grow.

I have had a passion for music for a very long time. I have a very profound love for music, and that is why I am now studying music composition in college, as I wish to make my own contribution to the world through music. I believe there is nothing quite like music. It has a soothing effect on the soul, it makes you think, it inspires, and so much more. All this has happened in my life, and my love for music continues to grow. About four years ago, I decided to drop out of high school. I was battling with anxiety, and feeling alone. I did have a clear sense of direction in my life. I eventually ended up at an alternative high school, where I was tasked with researching colleges. At this point in my life, I was doing better with my mental health, yet I still didn't know what I would be doing after high school. I did not have a desire to go to college, as I originally didn't even desire to finish high school traditionally. As I researched, I discovered Wheaton College and its Conservatory of Music, and everything changed. I wouldn't say my passion for music was absent in this period of my life, but it wasn't intense and didn't bear much fruit. Within the next few months, I applied to the school as an upcoming music composition major. I composed the three required pieces and prepared my piano repertoire, applied, and was accepted. This was the only college I applied to. My passion for music grew, and I remembered why my mother put me in piano lessons when I was nine. I loved music, and my family could see that I had a desire to explore more, and I discovered a desire to make my own musical works. I am now taking piano lessons again, studying with the conservatory's composition faculty, and I am surrounded by music and experienced musicians from which I learn and develop my skills. I have composed a few pieces that have now been performed in school. I am not very experienced, but my passion is urging me to continue to immerse myself in music and develop my musical voice. I will study conducting and orchestration next semester, and I am now studying piano improvisation over the summer, while I think about my next composition, all to reach my vision of music-making to impact my community. Music has pushed me through dark times, reminded me of my vision of helping others, helped me cope with my anxiety after going to a psychiatric hospital, and so on. I desire to continue to grow as a musician, and pursuing my college degree is undoubtedly helping. I now look back on the choices that I made, to stop taking piano lessons when I was 10, for example, and how they were unwise. I love the art of music, and it will be a part of my life for a long time. For now, I must keep moving forward to grow as a person, academic, leader, and musician.

I remember how feeling scared and angry at myself when I was in the back of a police car, being taken to a psychiatric hospital, for the second time. My anxiety had gotten very bad and had led me to become angry and destructive once again. Time and time again, I would feel confused. Why was I so anxious, and why would the anxiety impact my ability to socialize and form relationships in school, at home, and so on? Ever since elementary school, since I was very young! I would ask myself why my anxiety made me so angry. Anxiety runs in my family, and I have seen it affect people that I love on plenty of occasions. Because of this, naturally, I was born with a higher likelihood of developing social anxiety and anxiety overall, which led to anger and tension in my family and friendship relationships. Since I was very young, I was the boy who would not talk to anybody in school and missed many social events and gatherings. Since I was very quiet and avoided social interactions, people would avoid me, or would not put much effort into getting to know and befriend me. People would not choose to do schoolwork with me, or invite me to their celebrations. This led to several instances of bullying. I did not make any real friends until recently, in college, now that I have been working on my mental health, and have received mental health counseling and spiritual mentoring. Since I was taken to the psychiatric hospital, the second time, I have learned how to take care of myself, and how to practice, practice talking and getting to know people. I am learning that it is counterproductive to avoid what is difficult, but that it is important to practice what causes the anxiety, to see that things aren't always as you imagine. People do want to know me, and care about me enough to listen to me and not judge me for who I am right now. I have started to make friends, pursue social opportunities, attend social events, dances, and so on. This has only benefited me, and I have gotten to know some very special people because of this. I can finally say that social anxiety and anxiety overall are no longer controlling me fully, but I am taking control over it, and I can now focus on making the most out of my studies. I pursue a college degree to reach my vision of helping others to find a better life, amidst all the difficulties they face themselves. I wish to lead others through the musical skills that I am developing as I pursue my degree. I am the first in my family to strive for this level of education, and I intend to make the most out of my college degree. Now that I am in a better place mentally, spiritually, and socially, I can place more of my mind's effort on studying, practicing, and obtaining as much necessary knowledge as possible. I can focus on being trained for future work and volunteering. My degree will help me to be prepared academically and artistically for future career and volunteer work, and I will be able to help others who face mental health or other life struggles, through music and leadership, which I am learning more and more about in my studies now that I am overcoming my social anxiety, with the help of friends, my girlfriend, my professor, family, and mentor. For now, I should continue to grow and work on myself.

In my last year of alternative High school, there was a time when I shared a presentation that I feel Inspired those attending class. Not only that, but this experience planted my desire to lead others. Everybody in my class was given the task of making a presentation that detailed your vision and hopes for the future, and then to present it to everybody else. I had always been a shy child , so this task was daunting. I knew that I had to present something unique, something that inspired the others in the class, but I didn't know how. At the time, I had recently begun my faith journey with the Lord, and I still had very much to learn about God, and what He wanted for me. I was in a stage of life where big decisions needed to be made soon. I was in an alternative school because of my abrupt decision to drop out of High school a few years prior, definitely not planning to go to college. I needed to begin to discover who I was, and what was in store for me in my future career, education, etc. I was discovering my unique identity as a 17 year old, Mexican-American, low- Income, yet passionate and creative young adult, with good aspirations. My faith began to mature and God lead me, opening the right doors in my life. I was lead to present about my faith, and what God had recently been leading me to do in my future. My faith allowed me to boldly share the things that I had been discovering in faith, and I believe people listened, and were inspired to pursue their hopes with faith in the Lord. Through this experience, I gained more confirmation on my calling to lead with boldness with my faith. Even as l write this, I am able to see how this experience was the beginning of a love and desire to lead others, despite my limitations and weaknesses, financially, socially, mentally, etc. My teacher congratulated me for my effort to inspire, recording my presentation and telling me that he would publish it online. While I can't guarentee that everybody in the room received what I hoped for them, I can say that certain people did, and I was inspired to lead. As I study music as a Sophomore in college, I still have the desire to lead with my faith, but even more than I did 3 years ago. I hope to use my musical skills and the passion that God has given me to lead others to God.