I sat in my car, turned on the engine, and drove home with tears running down my cheek. We all have a vision of how we wish our life to play out. We make plans to serve in the military, get a college degree, buy our parents a house, and work to protect all those around us. But when our future is out of our hands, those plans seem to terminate in a blink of an eye.
On September 5, 2017, I was informed by one of my classmates that the White house had made their decision concerning Deferred Action for Childhood Arrivals. After the last bell rang, my friend Luis said to me, “You know they cancelled it? They took away DACA.” I went to my car and sat. Afraid, I searched the news on my phone still hopeful that he had lied but he hadn’t. I started my car and drove. As the landscape rushed past outside, memories and thoughts started rushing inside my mind and tears glazed over my eyes. I was driving a car. DACA had given me that opportunity. The simple opportunity of obtaining a driver’s license, something taken for granted but for me was a big accomplishment, was going to be taken less than a year after I had first receive it. I was driving my first car, which had also been my dad’s first car. In our birth country we could have never owned one. This was one of the many firsts I wished to accomplish. I dreamt of being commissioned into the Navy as an officer, to serve the country that had given me so much, to be the first in my family to get a college degree, and to help my parents buy their first home. Without DACA those chances became near impossible, no license, no protection from deportation, and no work permit.
The idea of giving up on everything isn’t hard to come by in occasions such as this one. However, I focused on one word, “near.” My dreams were “near” impossible. There was a possibility, no matter how small, that things might still work out. I could have accepted defeat and sat waiting for the day when I would have to leave behind everything I knew. Instead, I chose to use this challenge to motivate myself. I moved forward giving my tasks and responsibilities all of the energy and commitment I had always given them because I am still myself and no government policy could take that from me. I am still determined to be a protector and one day work in law enforcement. I am still determined to make my family proud and provide them with a comfortable life in payment for what they sacrificed for me. I am still loyal to this country, and I still strive to serve those in my life who look to me for guidance and leadership.
Challenges test our will and they continue to do so throughout our lives. We can’t focus on what we have lost. Positivity led me to persevere. Years later I can say that I made the right choice by not letting the removal of DACA limit what I did. I have nothing to regret because I learned that I can make what I want of my future no matter what I have. Everything has worked out so far, even as the uncertainty continues. I am so much closer to my goals because I did not falter despite of these setbacks.