Hello, my name is Embery! Growing up, I went through a lot of things that scarred me mentally, and once I realized that keeping myself in a poor mindset would only continue to lead me into further situations such as those, I fixed my life around and began to prioritize my own wellness.
From kindergarten to fifth grade, I was bullied for being the awkward friend, the girl who always had her head in a fantasy novel or a horror novel; not too great socially and an only child.
Then, middle school came, and Hurricane Harvey- and then I had two younger brothers, now ages 4 and 7, and I dealt with trying to fit in along with a lot of bottled up anger from my previous experiences! I experienced trauma, things that I was forced to do that I wouldn’t have liked to. I had to understand that my mother didn’t have enough money for much because she became unemployed, and that I now had siblings, a few years later than I would have liked despite how much I had begged for them.
Then COVID-19 came around, and my mother finally had a job, but I was stuck in a house with a family I quite frankly wasn’t used to being around that much. I had to learn to become organized and to find peace when it felt like I couldn’t breathe.
Reading a nice book, writing a story, or watching an inspirational video helped center me. I noticed the more that I surrounded myself around good people, the more peaceful my life became. I didn’t let negative influences get in my way and I learned to stand up for myself, even if the odds were against me.
Early in my high school years, my father passed. He had been mostly absent before, but it seemed like his death made him present in every aspect of my life. Once when I hardly thought about him, I saw him in everything. I had no one to lean on because the people around me assumed that I wouldn’t care about losing someone who hadn’t been around anyways.
It is a different pain to lose someone who you don’t see everyday, who don’t know well. It’s the loss of never knowing if you would have grown closer, and the anger that you hadn’t been. I’ll never get to see him walk me down the aisle or see me walk across the stage at graduation.
Then one summer everything changed for me. It was almost like I was yanked out of my negativtiy and enveloped in kindness and positivity. I began to read the Bible and watch testimonials. I changed the things that I listened to and cut off the people that weren’t looking to improve themselves.
If I hadn’t tried to change myself for the better, I wouldn’t be able to see the future set out for me. I want to be a beacon for my community, to aid those in need. I will become a child and adolescent psychiatrist, aiding low-income indiviuals who might otherwise not be able to afford the services that they need.
Receiving this scholarship going into my freshman year, would not only allow me to help others, it will also allow me to pull my family from a generational set-up of living paycheck to paycheck. I am beginning the long road to owning my own practice as we speak. Thank you for your time!