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Ella Smalley
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My name is Ella Smalley, and one of my life-long pursuits has been to study at a four-year university. I am currently a sophomore at the University of Illinois at Urbana-Champaign as an English major, and I am looking to add a minor in French, Communications, and/or Media. I am looking for and applying to scholarships to fund all of my college expenses (including tuition, housing, books, etc.) to keep this dream alive. I enjoy reading, 80s music, sketching, and working on creative projects. Throughout high school I was on the dance team, played flute/piccolo in band, acted in 4 years of my high school's theater productions, and participated in a multitude of miscellaneous extra-curriculars, such as volunteering for local organizations, Key Club, and art and math contests. My biggest inspirations are my family, friends, and the plethora of books, films, and media that have shaped who I am today.
Education
University of Illinois at Urbana-Champaign
Bachelor's degree programMajors:
- English Language and Literature, General
Bismarck-Henning High School
High SchoolMiscellaneous
Desired degree level:
Master's degree program
Graduate schools of interest:
Transfer schools of interest:
Majors of interest:
- English Language and Literature, General
- Journalism
Career
Dream career field:
Publishing
Dream career goals:
Writer and Editor
Assistant
Roselawn Dance By Merit2019 – 20201 yearLibrary Staff
Ricker Library of Architecture and Art2024 – Present1 yearBarista
Scooter's Coffee2024 – Present1 year
Sports
Dancing
Intramural2020 – 20244 years
Awards
- Most Valuable Dancer
- Most Improved
Arts
High School
Visual ArtsArt Contests2020 – 2024High School
MusicConcerts, Performances2020 – 2024High School
ActingHigh School Musical Jr., Legally Blonde Jr. , Xanadu Jr., The Villainous Family of Fremonts, Door-To-Door2020 – 2024Roselawn Dance by Merrit (Premiere)
DanceAnnual Recitals2009 – 2020
RonranGlee Literary Scholarship
Act 5, Scene 1, Lines 33 - 55 of William Shakespeare's Macbeth: "Yet here's a spot. / Hark, she speaks. I will set down what comes from her, to satisfy my remembrance the more strongly. / Out damned spot, out, I say! One. Two. Why then, 'tis time to do't. Hell is murky. Fie, my lord, fie, a soldier and afeard? What need we fear who knows it, when none can call our power to account? Yet who would have thought the old man to have had so much blood in him? / Do you mark that? / The Thane of Fife had a wife. Where is she now? What, will these hands ne'er be clean? No more o' that, my lord, no more o' that. You mark all with this starting. / Go to, go to. You have known what you should not. / She has spoke what she should not, I am sure of that. Heaven knows what she has known. / Here's the smell of the blood still. All the perfumes of Arabia will not sweeten this little hand. O, O, O!"
How deep does the damage that comes with murder seep into the human psyche? Shakespeare grapples with this concept in one of his bloodiest plays, Macbeth. Throughout its duration, the audience witnesses a multitude of deaths increasing in severity and ghastliness, from King Duncan to the Macduff children, as Macbeth and the cunning Lady Macbeth conspire and kill to place Macbeth on the throne. On the way to the top, however, Macbeth acquires a taste for brutality that initially he lacked, and the play witnesses his rise to power as well as his decline in morality leading up to his death. While the entirety of the play grapples with the ethical and physical implications of murder, I find that this scene in particular sheds light on the mental consequences of the deed through Lady Macbeth's night terrors. A doctor and gentlewoman watch with baited breath as Lady Macbeth furiously scrubs her hands, trying to rid herself of the invisible blood coating them (referencing back to the initial murder of Duncan). The moment is solemn, haunting, and enumerates that despite being the more cold, calculating, and level-headed partner in crime to Macbeth, inside she is racked with subconscious, deep-rooted guilt manifesting itself when she is most vulnerable. Shakespeare uses setting, context and the jerky, almost unintelligible language of Lady Macbeth to both explicate these moral implications that the play contends with as well as giving lots of creative liberty for different performances and interpretations of this scene.
This moment begins with something unique that immediately sets it apart from its neighboring scenes - Lady Macbeth is asleep. Therefore, the way that a performance is staged and how an actress is placed can differ from the rest of the play. Shakespeare notes that Lady Macbeth rises each night, hastens to her closet and then returns to her bed. The staging here could, for instance, first resemble the makings of a queen's wardrobe with the doctor and gentlewoman closely in tow to then expand into darkness as she begins to speak. A spotlight shines on Lady Macbeth, as the two onlookers are pressed back into the shadows. The darkness around her represents the mysterious, macabre tone of both this sole scene and the entirety of Shakespeare's piece. Likewise, it showcases the singularity of Lady Macbeth's subconscious - only she can see and experience whatever is awaiting her within this dream as much as only she can answer for what wrongs she had conspired. She states that "Hell is murky" (Ln. 38), which could call reference to the strained, bare feeling of the stage at this moment. It encompasses the lonely feeling that Lady Macbeth must feel in her guilt, for in this sin she is relatively alone.
Lady Macbeth's lines reflect the surreal feeling of witnessing someone sleepwalk, seeing someone with eyes open wide looking at you yet registering a whole separate world. The perpetrator is incoherent and transparent, whereas the observer is left unsettled and even terrified. Phrases such as "One. Two." (Ln. 37) and "no more o' that, my lord, no more o' that"(Ln. 46) instill an unnerving feeling in the audience. Her words at times are short and pinched, confusing to an audience not seeing what she does, and her addressing "my lord" emphasizes the point that she is no longer within the real world but rather a removed other world. Further, the lines "Will these hands ne'er be clean?" (Ln. 45) and "All the perfumes of Arabia will not sweeten this little hand." (Ln. 54-55) gesture to Lady Macbeth's fervor to clean herself of the sin of her crimes, like she once had after spreading blood on the guards outside Duncan's chamber. The insistence of her subconscious to do so reflects both her newfound nobility and her persistent vanity. Despite all of the resources she has as a queen, all the perfumes, powders, riches, garments, etc., nothing can cleanse her of this dark past. Her last "O, O, O!" (Ln. 55) is jarring, and while reading may seem like an odd, dysfunctional phrasing for Shakespeare to include. However, is it excellent fodder for productions to show various interpretations of Lady Macbeth's internal turmoil, from Judi Dench's haunting drawn-out groan in the 1979 Royal Shakespeare production by Trevor Nunn to Tina Sterling's shaky, quiet sob from Tim Chisholm's Shakespeare at play production.
In all, this moment is an inside look into the internal crumbling of an artificial character. For all of her outward austerity, cutting wit, conceit, and lust for wealth and luxury, her fear and remorse is splayed bare for the audience to observe. It shows that despite the strength and supposed fortitude in these qualities, in truth they are empty, pliable and can snap under pressure. Shakespeare ultimately uses her character to show the psychological damage that follows in the trail of murder, showing that even the most confident can still be broken by its ramifications and gives the play a clear moral lesson to take away that may be lost in other Shakespearean works - murder and deceit, while earning you some, will take away twice as much and lead one nowhere good in the end.
RonranGlee Literary Scholarship
"She gazed at the blackened stones and, for the last time, she saw Twelve Oaks rise before her eyes as it had once stood, rich and proud, symbol of a race and a way of living. Then she started down the road toward Tara, the heavy basket cutting into her flesh. Hunger gnawed at her empty stomach again and she said aloud: 'As God is my witness, as God is my witness, the Yankees aren't going to lick me. I'm going to live through this, and when it's over, I'm never going to be hungry again. No, nor any of my folks. If I have to steal or kill -- as God is my witness, I'm never going to be hungry again.'"
I’m never going to be hungry again. These words made history when the 1939 theatrical version of Gone With The Wind hit theaters. As Vivien Leigh delivered this award winning anecdote, something within the gravitas of her words and the sheer determination and despair in her voice clicked with audiences everywhere, making this novel by Margaret Mitchell a timeless classic in American literature. However, mere years earlier, these words connected with readers as well, and as it is clear to see for any individual who has read the tale of Southern belle Scarlett O’Hara, this exact moment marks a pivotal moment both within the novel, defining the very existence of Scarlett’s future and her loved ones.
Multiple themes of the novel are conveyed through this passage, as Scarlett ruminates on how far she has fallen, as the only life she had ever known, full of glory, riches, and youthful delight, lay in charred rubble before her. The ‘golden days’ of Clayton County were luxurious for many, but especially for 16-year old Scarlett, who had the suitors of the town wrapped around her finger and her father’s riches providing an extremely lavish life of dresses and delicacies at her beloved childhood home, a Southern plantation called Tara. These years depicted Scarlett as selfish and vain, not afraid to use deceit to get whatever she desired and with no women friends to show for it (rather, some enemies instead). War was futile and meaningless to her as she relished in the splendor of her privileged youth, despite her Mother’s humble teachings. As the Civil war broke out, Scarlett survived, caring for her newborn, more frustrated if anything, but never broken. But as the South tumbled into defeat, Scarlett found herself back at Tara, miraculously still standing, with a deathly Melanie Wilkes, an infant, and hungry mouths to feed, looking to her for leadership. But now, her Mother, her strength and one solace, was dead, and her father disturbed, too destroyed by grief to ever be the strong, confident man that he was. And so, this moment shows Scarlett’s coming into leadership, as she takes the burden of the folk at Tara in her desperate determination to live, swearing to only ‘think about it tomorrow’, when she could bear to withstand the pain and sadness. And as she viewed the remnants of Twelve Oaks, home to her friends and neighbors, as well as her beloved childhood beau, she had finally lost something permanent that she could not whine, plead, or whittle to get back.
Additionally, this passage resembles the key characteristic that separates Scarlett and her peers, such as other women and the social society in Atlanta. After the war, the South was crippled. While they could recover mostly physically – businesses rebuilt, the social scene reconvened, merriment commenced – they were always searching for what they could never find ever again: the comfort and easy way of the Golden Days. They became so fixated on the past and its beauty, its simplicity, that it stunted them from ever truly recovering. But as for Scarlett, the old days were gone – money was short, bills needed to be paid, and most importantly, food needed to be put on the table. In her mind, there was simply no point in looking upon the past, as it was futile and meaningless to the action going on now. Her logic and resoluteness allowed her to vastly surpass her friends and societal norms at the time, as she built her lumber business essentially from the ground up, as well as a store, in spite of the clang of dissent against her doing so. As she broke free from society's standards and the grip war time had on reminiscing townsfolk, she started to fully come to fruition. This brought her the finally realized the bond she shared with Melanie Wilkes, and that Ashley was never the man who was right for her or the man that she loved, and that individual instead, she realized, was Rhett Butler. This all stems from Scarlett’s monumental decision to continue to fight – against hunger, pain, and poverty.
Finally, the wording in this passage serves to enhance these points. As Mitchell describes the state of Twelve Oaks (e.g. ‘blackened’), she finally breaks away from the security of the Golden Days. The basket cutting her flesh could symbolize the copious amount of pain and hardship she has already experienced and will have to endure to survive. Moreover, hunger serves as a metaphor for Scarlett’s greatest adversity, which keeps her hoarding money for years in fear that it will one day vanish. Her fears of poverty and starvation led to her continuous dream, as she ran through a mysterious, foreboding fog, that amplified these fears, whittling down her wills to continue to fight. Her dreams, and subsequently, her fears of hunger and poverty, were her wandering in confusion towards an uncertain future that was seemingly cold and uncaring, away from the warmth, comfort, and security that had blanketed her in her youth. And eventually, she found what she sought for in Rhett Butler, and even when he had rejected her love, after years of waiting for her reciprocation for years, she summed up courage once again to win him back, as she stands as a symbol of strength.
Overall, this passage is the culmination of all that Scarlett had and would accomplish within the novel, marking the extreme courage and determination that fueled her character and helped her continue on. Her words should not be taken lightly, and anyone can find reassurance and strength in them as well. Perhaps, despite the magnitude of one’s adversity, anyone can overcome life’s challenges. After all, tomorrow is another day.