There will be no school tomorrow. There will be no school for the next two weeks. You will not go back to school this year. I remember the day we went home excited and weary that there was no school the next day due to covid-19 shut downs. My mom and I went to Kroger after she picked me up from school. Many isles were empty and there was an Erie feeling in the store. It was at Kroger that we got a call that we would not have school the next two weeks. Weeks turned into months with no church, no school, and no clubs, and so on. I looked forward to talking to people on zoom. We quarantined from my dad, my friends, and more.
Those months in 2020 were months of isolation, confusion, sadness, but oh so much learning. After a year of doubting God, a year of navigating the next phase of life, a year of losing friends, and a year of wondering what life’s purpose was this supposed trial became a season of incomparable growth.
Majority of the time during Covid-19 was spent building faith. For two years I has questioned what I knew about God. As I studied, read, watched, listened, asked questions, and searched the word I began to see that what I had been taught about God lined up with both science and history. God is proven faithful in science and history. He is the creator of science and history.
Some of my time was learned discovering my purpose. I was anxious and depressed. I was terribly fearful of the future and anxious about what my purpose was. Every morning I would contemplate the “American dream” I so dreaded. I was saddened as I thought my purpose could be summarized by going to school, going to school more, working, and then dying. During this time, through the help of the Holy Spirit and the scriptures I came to realize that God’s plan for my life is so much greater. He has made me his child and I will get to spend eternity in His perfection. I also have been set apart for His purpose here on earth. God has a good plan for my life for my good and His glory.
This also was a season of coming to know the true gospel. I had grown up in legalism and indirectly believed that I had to earn my way to heaven. During Covid-19 I learned that Jesus is the only way to heaven. I could not save myself, I didn’t need to save myself. The only way I could be saved was by repenting and believing in the death, burial, and resurrection of Jesus. This took an enormous burden off of me and gave me joy and peace where I once had anxiety and depression. This led to more learning and growth as I learned more about who God is and what Jesus has done.
Though this was a hard time to persevere through especially with added anxiety and depression God helped me persevere. I made it through that season of hardship by the grace of God. He helped me grown through it, learn through it, become more like Jesus through it, find joy and peace through it, and so much more.