Several years ago, around the beginning of high school, I was in a deep mental slump. I hated how I looked, I neglected my health, and was fully consumed by cheap sources of dopamine. On top of this, I no longer had the drive to do a career with STEM, something I thought my whole childhood about, and instead thought about easier alternatives. I even declined invites to hanging out with my friends and chose to play video games or scroll online for the night.
Today, I am proud to say that I am a much better person than I was in early high school. I am pursuing a Bachelor's degree in Space Physics, with plans of getting a PhD in Astrophysics after completing my undergrad. I am in much better health, both physically and mentally, and my social life has never been better. Now you might ask, what changed? Well for me, it all took off for me when I discovered healthy ways to cope. I began my journey in the gym roughly five years ago, and used it as an outlet for stress and shame. I used to be very underweight, and I felt very ashamed of it due to getting bullied for it in school. So I went to the gym to fix this problem, and it took a while, but eventually I did. The gym taught me discipline, and once I got comfortable with it, I started focusing on other aspects of my life to improve, such as my social anxiety at the time.
I think part of the reason I had social anxiety was because I was ashamed of how I looked, and once I got more comfortable with how I looked, it faded away, but not completely. To solve this, I tasked myself to interact with people more often then I would usually. This could be a simple interaction, such as complimenting a stranger as they walk by me to class. Little things like this slowly built up my confidence to talk to and meet new people. I can't say I'm the most social person on the planet now, but if 14 year old me saw how I act today, he would be astonished.
More recently, I started meditating to improve my mental health. At first, I thought meditation was just something that hippies swear by, I didn't really believe in it. However, meditation has by far been the greatest thing for me to help shape my goals, relationships, and understanding of the world. It has allowed me to sit with my thoughts with greater focus, something I have never really been able to do before. One of the first things it taught me was that I have been living life too fast. I was always looking forward to the next "exciting" thing, and never truly appreciating the moment that I'm in right now. I realized that my focus on the people around me were distracted and neglected if I had something more exciting to do in the future. Learning to exist fully in the moment has allowed me to put better care in my conversations with people.
Another thing I learned from meditation was how lucky I am to have the opportunities that I do. I realized that not everyone gets to go to college and study something that they are passionate about. I feel incredibly grateful to be alive and doing what I love. With this, I also realized just how beautiful it is that everyone else has their own passions that could be entirely different from my own, but that they feel so strongly towards. I will never be able to truly know just how they feel about those passions.
The last thing about meditation that I learned was simply that it is another great way to manage stress. It made me realize that the things that bothered me the most in my day to day life were really not worth stressing over.
All in all, taking care of my mental health has made significant improvements in my determination to complete my goals, my relationships, and my general understanding of the world. Having a strong mind makes it vastly easier to complete the hard tasks that I need to do in order to succeed. It also brought me much closer to those around me, and enabled me to make new connections with people that I wouldn't have normally made. Also, I have a much better understanding about my ego and psyche, as well as the lives of everyone else.