It’s hard to live without truly knowing who you are. Growing up as a transgender person, I faced the struggle of piecing together my identity while navigating a world that often told me I didn’t belong. In today’s political climate, that struggle has only become harder. The pressure to conform, the fear of being seen as “different,” and the constant debate over my right to exist were a heavy weight to carry, especially as a teenager.
At school, I was relentlessly bullied for being myself. The names, the whispers, and the isolation wore me down over time. Eventually, the constant harassment began to feel unbearable, and I attempted suicide. It wasn’t that I wanted to die, it was that I couldn’t see a way to live in a world that seemed determined to erase me. My grades slipped, not because I didn’t care about school, but because survival became my full-time focus. Every day felt like a battle just to make it to the next one.
Then, during my sophomore year, something happened that shattered what little sense of safety I had left. My school janitor, a trusted adult in the building, tried to initiate a sexual relationship with me. He framed it as “helping him find his identity,” but I knew it was wrong. I felt trapped between wanting to protect myself and not wanting to “ruin his life.” For a while, that fear kept me quiet. But the weight of what happened, and the knowledge that it could happen to someone else, finally pushed me to act.
I went to my principal, filed a report, and eventually opened a police case. That meant I would have to face him in court, reliving the entire experience in front of strangers. It was one of the most terrifying things I’ve ever done. But it was also a turning point. For the first time, I saw that my voice could matter. Speaking up wasn’t just about me, it was about protecting others and showing that people like me deserve to be heard, believed, and defended.
Everything I’ve been through, the bullying, the mental health struggles, the assault, could have broken me completely. And for a while, I thought they had. But over time, I’ve learned to see these experiences not just as pain I endured, but as fuel for my purpose. They have given me a perspective that can’t be taught in any classroom: the understanding of what it feels like to be silenced, ignored, and misrepresented.
Now, I want to take that understanding and turn it into action. My goal is to pursue international law, with the long-term aim of earning a Ph.D. and representing those whose rights are violated simply because of who they are. I want to stand up for the people who are lied about in the media, targeted by discriminatory laws, and dismissed as less than human. I want to be a voice for the people who didn’t survive to see the change they fought for, those who died because of violence, hatred, or the unbearable weight of being told they don’t belong.
The road ahead will not be easy. Law school is expensive, and pursuing an advanced degree is a long, demanding process. But every step I take is driven by the knowledge that my story is not unique, and that is exactly why it matters. There are countless others living through their own versions of my experiences, and many don’t have the platform, resources, or safety to speak out. I want to be their advocate, their defender, and their proof that survival.