At the age of 13, I have to admit that faith was not something that occupied my mind very often. As the first child in my family to pursue a college education, I felt a significant amount of pressure from my family and peers. It was a heavy burden, one that weighed on my shoulders and made me acutely aware of the expectations set before me. This struggle resonated not only with me but with many Hispanic children who find themselves grappling with similar challenges, trying to navigate their aspirations while fulfilling their parents’ hopeful dreams for them. My great-grandma had passed away, and I was struggling mentally. I often laughed to mask the pain inside, feeling disconnected from my emotions. My heart would ache every time I pictured my great-grandma lying in that hospital bed, suffering. There was nothing I could do since she was in another state and I was here in Houston. I couldn’t travel because I was too young, and witnessing my great-grandma's decline was one of the hardest experiences I’ve ever faced. I still remember my aunt on the phone during those moments. Occasionally, I miss my great-grandma’s voice. As I sought solace in spirituality, I learned valuable lessons about the nature of suffering and resilience. I often grappled with the question of why God allows us to endure such pain, leading many to experience illness or emotional shock. Through reflection and prayer, I've come to understand that God presents us with obstacles and challenges not to punish us, but because He knows we possess the strength to overcome them. This realization has transformed my perspective, allowing me to view life's hardships as opportunities for growth rather than solely as sources of pain. This was one of those times when I decided to put God first and not let anything come before Him. He is the one who stays with us through both the worst and best days. I never fully understood this before because I was too blind and ignorant to recognize His presence. I've come to realize that life isn't always colorful. There are moments when you need to pause, take a breath, and pray. I relied on faith to help me through this tough situation there are still times when I would miss her but I know that God has her in a better place without suffering and I know that all he is doing is for a reason and I would not mess his plans.