I’m often inspired by stories in which the underdog changes the story’s ending. Not simply changing the ending, but rewriting a brand new story. Maybe it is because I have always felt a little like those characters, the ones who don’t exactly fit in the box, but are resolutely determined to create their own. Still, I understand Mulan’s determination to take her own path even when it is contrary to expectations. And that’s exactly what I am trying to do!
As I saw it, the first time I watched Mulan, I did not perceive a warrior; I saw a cowardly girl trying to figure out how to create a path for her future. My image of her exceeded that of a girl who was weak and afraid of failing, while not even knowing if she was capable. I doubted myself because I was drained by how distant success seemed. However, I realized my journey was very similar to Mulan’s. Not smooth sailing, but my goals just involved some excitement and determination. By using Mulan, I learned to start looking at it from a different angle, that even if I failed, at least it would be the bout of always pushing forward anyway that would strengthen me over time. I became a shield for my future aspirations every time my failures tried to strike me down.
I, meanwhile, was trying to balance school, community service, and home commitments. There were days when I felt stretched like a rubber band. But I kept going. And I’ve learned that the picture of resilience isn’t always a heroic one. Sometimes it’s getting out of bed when you’re tired or going when you’d rather stay home. It’s not glamorous, but it’s real — and it’s something I’ve come to value deeply
“Maybe what I really wanted was to prove that I could do things right, so when I looked in the mirror, I’d see someone worthwhile” (Mulan, 1998).
I crave to open new doors, take long strides, and discover the world and endless possibilities of where I can make an impact. Although my challenges likely do not resonate as loudly as hers did. Regardless, they have shaped me into the resilient person I see in the mirror today. The resilience I keep fighting with until this day to get to the future that I am grasping onto and not letting go.
When I became AED and CPR certified, it was not merely to check off a box; it was to have an impact on other people’s lives. To form a new beginning and make my family proud, like they always make me, I am stepping out into the world and leaving a mark. I want to experience ambition, not just as an idea, but as a personal devotion to myself, to get me to move, and do all I ever wanted and more.
I am looking for a stethoscope, not a sword, a chance to give that unyielding to the field of medicine.
I don’t have it all figured out, but this is what I do know: I want my life to be about helping people — especially when something is tough. Nursing is the right thing for me: it’s hands-on, it’s personal. It’s not about procedures or charts; it’s about being there when someone really needs you. I want to be able to walk with people in the times that feel unbearable, like my grandma’s. I hope I can be that sort of steady rock for someone else, the way she was, even in the last years, when she could hardly walk herself. One thing I’m learning is that it doesn’t have to be any major baggage to get a sense that someone is seen. Sometimes it’s just being there. Listening. Being patient. Truly caring. This is what I try to lend to everything I am a part of. I’m continuing to grow, to learn, to try and figure it out. But one thing remains clear to me: I hope to continue to show up for people — silently, quietly, even slowly — as my grandmother did.
For me, I learned not to be the scared, timid little girl anymore; I learned to stand up for myself and to advocate for myself. I am the only person in control of my story, and I intend to keep rewriting it into something extraordinary. This is why I want to pursue the medical field: medicine is more than biology; it is the personal connection I create when I am with someone at their most vulnerable, and a source of support when they need it most in their heart and soul. My determination burns as fiercely, if not more so, as Mulan’s courage in the face of adversity. My calling has evolved from science to the essence of being human, and compassion from one human being to another, in the healthcare profession.