Hi, im Dairy Mejia, I'm trans fem & non-binary. I currently live in an extremely transphobic and homophobic household. I plan on using college as an escape, a jumping point, for me to live my life comfortably and healthy. By the time I graduate, I won't be able to move out because I'll be 17, so I plan on taking a gap year so that I can turn 18 and legally move out without parental permission. my mother doesn't want me to leave she wants to do everything she can to keep me home, since ill be cutting her off in the future, I won't be able to financially depend on her in college, so I'm looking for as much financial help as possible. being LGBTQ+ has drastically affected my life in bad and good ways, it makes it harder, but it also inspires me.
I often think about how different things were, and how much "better" they are now. I can't imagine what it was like then, not being able to have the resources given to me now by queer adults or counselors, I can't imagine not being educated by LGBTQ+ health organizations about safe sex and STDs, and I can't imagine not being able to express my self. even though things can and should get better, I think there's a huge thanks to be given to the generation before us for pathing the way for LGBTQ+ rights. I'm very excited for the world ahead of me. I'm so excited to meet other LGBTQ+ people, especially other trans people, and I'm even more excited to transition.
I've had a very hard time with my mental health, especially because I'm lgbtq, which unfortunately isn't rare. a data statistic recorded by "Psych Central": "LGBTQIA+ individuals are more than twice as likely as heterosexual individuals to experience a mental health disorder, and 2.5x as likely to experience depression, substance misuse, and anxiety". saying stuff like "I'm excited for the future" used to feel so odd to me. my mental health was bad since 8th grade, it started when I came out to my mom who called me an "abomination". I used to be so close to her, it really hurt, and soon after in the next year I realized I was trans, and then gender dysphoria happened. I ended up finding a lot of amazing people in my life, and a lot of amazing LGBTQ+ counselors, and LGBTQ+ adults who've helped me with my mental health. Fortunately, now I can honestly look to the future and be thrilled about it.
after considering what it was I wanted to do in the future I decided I wanted to be a mortician. I want to go to college to get a degree in mortuary science, I think it's a beautiful necessary job in our society. Death is a fundamental truth in our world, the only truth, and it's beautiful in a lot of
ways, but the truth is it's very sad and comes in horrible ways. i believe it's very important to say goodbye to your loved ones, and morticians allow that to happen, they turn back the clock and allow you to see your loved one, they allow their family to say they're necessary goodbyes, and I think that's beautiful.
I'm happy to be given the opportunity to write this, it helped me look at the things in my life I'm most grateful for my friends, my family, and my community. thank you so much for reading and I hope that you can consider me as a valuable candidate for this scholarship.