Throughout all of my lowest points, art has always been my saving grace. In my sophomore year of high school, I was the most miserable I had ever been. Coming out of quarantine and being pushed back into socializing with people who had changed so much, when I myself had changed so much, was crippling, to say the least. My anxiety and insecurity was at an all-time high and I was having trouble showing up to my classes and making it through my extracurriculars. I was outcasted in much of my classes, especially in soccer, where I was nowhere near as good of a long-distance runner as the rest of my team. Much of my underlying stress came from my home life. My parents had gotten a divorce the year before, and we had all seen it coming for years. They always fought and I was made to be in the middle of arguments, trying to diffuse situations of adults three times my age. When the separation happened, I naively thought the yelling would stop, but instead, it almost got worse. I was the messenger for my parent's insults at each other, and it drove me and my brother insane. I was getting very little sleep during school nights, waking up before sunrise to catch my bus, and not leaving school until 5:00 p.m. when my parents left work, hours after my peers left. What hurt me the most was how none of my teachers or classmates cared to reach out or help me when I was so clearly tired every day and always zoning out. What eventually pulled me out of my depression was my anticipation for my upcoming AP Art Class. I was so eager to start working on projects and full illustrations, so much so that I joined the course my junior year of high school when students generally took the class senior year. It took a minute, but I eventually became good friends with the small group of students in that class, since we all had a common interest in creating. Being a junior meant I had more freedom over my class schedule, and it lifted a huge weight on my shoulders that I was no longer required to be in a sport for my physical education credit. I spent countless hours and the majority of my weeks working on my portfolio, applying skills that I had learned over my time being isolated during my freshman and senior years. I've filled up many sketchbooks with drawings and doodles, pouring my heart onto a page when I had no other outlet. More than anything with my portfolio, I was searching for validation. I wanted to show someone, anyone, that I mattered, and that I was trying. My attempts at portraying my passion and effort through my artwork paid off, as I received a perfect score on my AP 2-D Art Portfolio, being 0.7% of students to earn all possible points. I haven't stopped though, and I'm taking AP Drawing this year as a senior, as well as building my college application for art universities. My motiviation in art has led me to be more motivated in other aspects of my life as well. In the past year, I have had 3 jobs, obtained my driver's license, and entered many art competitions. Art has fundamentally changed me as a person for the better, and I am so grateful that I can consider it as a career option, but my main struggle with attending art school is the price tag, which is where scholarships would help me tremendously.