For me everything has always been good. Its always been okay. Until the last two years, they have been a real struggle. I'm not sure if its because I've been taking my first steps into adulthood or if its just the teenage hormones. Either way something hasn't been right. I think for me my reality is, I simply miss being a kid. When my mental health was at an all time low my grades started declining, I couldn't find joy in the things I uses to, and quite frankly I would waste my time.
Making my mental heath a priority has became something that I have been working on prioritizing. I have been taking steps on improving my mental heath by trusting more in God and spending more time with him. Specifically placing my worth in Christ and not the things of this world. I have also been spending more time with my family, mainly my younger siblings, they bring me back to the joys of being a kid. When my mental health is not good my room is often a mess, making it very difficult for my to focus on my schoolwork. Peoples areas can often reflect there mental state, so I have been focusing on clearing my mind and my spaces. Rather than get overwhelmed, I am learning to break things down into steps rather than taking on the whole wall all at once.
When people get depressed and anxious, they often turn to things to distract them, like alcohol, smoking, vaping, drugs, ect. One thing that many people aren't recognizing as a vice, is scrolling on social media. This is a trap I fell into, its not that I thought these videos where even that interesting, they just provided an escape and the opportunity for me to be lazy.
The biggest thing that we have lost by having these apps and websites is the simplicity of just sitting and thinking. I mean think about it when is the last you just sat and were bored, without picking up your phone? By picking up our phones to doom scroll we are shutting off part of our brain that God designed to be used for creativity. We lose the opportunity to create, design and think for ourselves. We are stuck in the trap of comparison of things that are edited and fake. Rather than focusing on how to develop our character, we focus on how we can be like others we lose our originality and uniqueness.
So on my search for a healthy mental peace, I have learned that I accomplish so much more when I set my phone down and involve myself with my life. I only get one and I have decided I'm not gonna waste it trying to be someone I'll never be. Instead I boost my mental health by just being me and growing in that way.
I hope to be a Missionary Nurse one day. I want to help heal people not only physically, but also mentally, emotionally, and spiritually. I want to give people hope and a peace of mind. It makes me sad to see when people are hurting and they think they have no one to help them. I want to be there for those people who feel stuck and lost, who are so overwhelmed with emotions they can barley breath. I don't want to be the nurse that looks at my patents and just gives them drugs to "fix" their problems. I want to be a person they can lean on, talk to, and trust. Someone who lets them know they are heard and loves them no matter who they are.