My parents' divorces and consideration of divorce has most definitely impacted my childhood. Not only have my birth parents been divorced once but twice to one another, and divorced from others as well. At first I saw my parents divorce as my normal but that has slowly changed over the years. Four years before I was born my mother gave birth to my older brother with her first husband. However she would quickly become a single mother at 21 and meet my father a couple weeks after giving birth. They got married exactly two years after meeting one another. Fast forward another two years and I was born. Although I knew my parents were married when they had me I could never remember them actually being together, because they got divorced right before my second birthday. Shortly after the divorce my mother married her third husband. From the age of two till the age of six I spent most days with my mother and every other weekend with my father. My only memories from this time are crying every time I had to leave my fathers house to the point I would make myself sick, my mother starting to visit my brother and I at my father house, and my mother and step father announcing her pregnancy. My step father was a drug addict and soon became abusive toward my mother, quickly resulting in divorce. Not long after the divorce my father moved in with us and my sister was born. My parents had been together again for five years when they decided to get married again. They both had full time jobs resulting in us kids spending a lot of time with our grandmother. However when we were all together they spent a lot of time arguing. They decided it would be best for my father to get a job truck driving where he would only be home on weekends. However this solution did not work the arguing continued even while he was gone and got worse when he was present. They spent ten years together before considering divorce again. This last spring they discussed plans on how to keep our family together or if it was best to move on. After four months of contemplation they finally filed for divorce. I spent my summer helping my mom move in with her new boyfriend and watching my dad start his dating journey. However I also spent a lot of the time over the past ten years being the monkey in the middle for my parents and the twenty four seven baby sitters for my little sister. From cooking meals to cleaning the house, being in school, caring for my sister, and having to distance myself from my brother, a lost my time to be a kid. Although I have grown more mature than most people my age because of this I missed out on a lot of my childhood. I love both of my parents deeply and have great relationships with them both, however I am still the monkey in the middle to this day. As both of my parents refuse to communicate and set boundaries with one another they tend to communicate through me. These next few months hold a lot of important mile stones for me such as my 18th birthday, high school graduation, technical school graduation, moving out, and starting college. Even though I am excited to see what the future was in-store for me I will never get the chance to relive my childhood or be able to erase the memories I have. So my parents divorce and consideration of divorce has impacted my childhood and will probably continue to impact me in my years to come.