Anxiety, depression, suicidal ideation, and substance use. These are all things that I have experienced in my lifetime and at one point, thought there was not a way out. Seven years ago, I was so deep in the depths of despair that the only solution that I could think of was to end my own life. The universe had other plans for me though. An old friend reached out to me with serendipitous timing and explained that he had gone through a very similar situation and wanted to help me. I enrolled in a 90-day program at an inpatient treatment facility for co-occurring disorders and this friend that threw me a lifesaver while I was drowning was the vice president of this facility.
It was incredibly hard to leave my family, job, and lifestyle to go to a different state for 3 months but if I had followed through with my original plan, I could have lost it all forever. What did I have to lose? I took the opportunity seriously and worked hard to get well and put myself back together again. When I came home after completing the program, I realized that the work was just beginning, and I would need continued care to stay on track. I met some amazing and compassionate counselors and therapists during my years of participation in mental health outpatient. These people showed me that I was not alone and belonged in this world.
These mental health workers inspired me to find my place in helping others. I decided to get certified as a substance use counselor and began working at a detox facility that is connected to an acute treatment center for mental health stabilization. I was always interested in the behavioral health aspect of the facility, but I did not have the qualifications to work with this clientele. A little over a year ago, I decided to go to college at the age of 39 to get my bachelor's degree in psychology to fulfill my overwhelming drive to become a therapist so I can help others the same way I was in the darkest hours of my life.
Around the time I enrolled in college, I was offered an amazing opportunity to serve my community and to help people suffering from mental health and substance use issues. I now work as a co-responding crisis counselor which means I work with law enforcement, the fire department, and EMS to help people in my community. The nature of my calls includes suicide attempts and threats, overdoses, and any mental health-related situation that emergency responders run into. This is a tough job but so rewarding and fulfilling. I think my own experiences with mental health have equipped me to take these cases with compassion and purpose. My experiences also make me an efficient counselor because I want to be a ray of hope for someone by using my lived experiences.
The position that I have now is perfect for me while I am in school because I am getting so much experience, building connections, and making a difference that will last a lifetime for some people. After I get my master’s degree in psychology with a specialization in counseling and addiction, I would like to open my own mental health outpatient facility for co-occurring disorders in my small community so I can provide long-term therapy to people suffering from mental health and substance use disorders. I am passionate about pursuing this goal because I want to pay it forward and support people the same way I was when needed.
The relationships I have acquired through this journey are incredibly influential and powerful. Unfortunately, my marriage did not make it through the troubling times, but I am still very close friends with my ex-husband, and we are rock stars at co-parenting. My two daughters are very thankful to have a healthy mother in their lives and I am very close with both. I want to show them that it is never too late to accomplish your goals and that mental health is so important. The healthy relationships that I have acquired during this journey are countless and I know that this tribe will continue to grow because of my understanding of the world. Everyone has a purpose and potential, no matter their circumstances, but we can’t do it alone. I truly want to help others in a way that will be impactful and long-lasting in the same way that I was when I needed it most. Thank you for your time and consideration. If I am awarded this scholarship, it will be used to make this world a better place by raising awareness and reducing stigma about mental health.