Spring vacation of 7th grade finds my family wandering the aisles of a tiny California gold rush town’s library. In the rack of beat-up, forgotten books for sale, I alight on two decrepit volumes swathed in ancient red cloth. Les Miserables by Victor Hugo, V. 1 and 2, printed in 1924. I buy them on the spot. Even though they are quite literally falling apart, I, at age 12, read all 1,391 Bible-thin pages. There are tears in my eyes as I carefully close the back cover.
The passion–the sincerity–of the piece appeals to me. It captures both the euphoric heights of love and spiritual freedom, as well as the heart-wrenching depths of injustice and loss. The story’s plot and characters are expressive of all the world’s love and heartbreak. Jean Valjean, Eponine, Fantine, Javert– they taught me what it means to be a human being.
I learned to recognize the inherent good in every person. Jean Valjean, a stone-hearted convict, was transformed into the most venerable of men by the forgiveness of an old bishop. Directed by his strong moral compass, Valjean challenged society’s stark conventions of right and wrong. Like him, I want to have the courage to live life on the terms of my own principles. I want to stand up for those who society disregards and use my voice to make a difference in the world.
But perhaps the most impactful words that have shaped my life’s ambitions were those spoken by Miss Rumphius, the gentle, red-haired heroine of a 1982 picture book.
As a small child, I was captivated by the delicate pastel watercolor scenes that graced each page. The book covers the life story of Miss Rumphius, a single woman who grows up traveling the world before settling down and planting lupine flowers to make the world a more beautiful place. Now, when I imagine myself in my own old age, I want to be the worldy, benevolent, and philanthropic elder exemplified by this fictional character.
The book opens with an encounter between a young Alice Rumphius and her beloved grandfather. From him, she discovers the three tasks she must do to lead an enjoyable and meaningful life: travel to faraway places, settle by the sea, and do something to make the world a more beautiful place. These words echo somewhere in my subconscious, providing a framework for my own desire for an enjoyable and meaningful life.
Travel to faraway places-- There is the whole world out there, and I want to broaden my horizons, gaining diverse perspectives outside of where I grew up.
Settle by the sea-- For me, water is symbolic of freedom and renewal. This reminds me to not shy away from flexibility and new beginnings in my life.
Make the world a more beautiful place-- I believe beauty is the joy that comes from the heart, and Miss Rumphius has inspired my mission to spread that love, joy, and connection. I love writing poetry, where I attempt to capture a moment or a feeling and share that emotional state with someone else. Well-crafted words have had the power to make me laugh, cry, and dream. I want to continue to reach out through writing and make an impactful emotional connection with another human being.
To me, Les Miserables and Miss Rumphius are more than just the 3-inch novel and 30-page picture book that I have read time and time again. They represent a way of life. As I navigate this complex, morally ambiguous world, my actions are guided by the universal truths embodied in Les Mis and Miss Rumphius.