Senior year was supposed to feel like the end of pressure, stress, and self-doubt. Instead, as time speeds up, so does the stress and pressure. My all-time goal for high school was to graduate with summa cum laude. Dedicating my time to early college courses and AP classes to boost my GPA. When I started struggling to maintain an A in my honors chemistry class, I watched my confidence and GPA go down. Seeing this was hard, and I felt dumb and behind. It took me back to being a little kid, having a harder time grasping the material while the other kids understood it perfectly. My self-doubt grew a ton, questioning my intelligence, future, and preparation. I began to measure my worth by a single grade, letting one class define how I saw myself as a student and person.
As all this was going on, I knew I needed to lean on someone I could confide in. That's when I knew I could talk to my early college coordinator, Ms. Cabralda. She has always been there for me for the three years I have had her. I received so much support and guidance from her throughout these years. She helped me with college classes, future decisions, and fears. I knew I could always go to her for advice and that she would listen without judgment. So when I mentioned to her that I was having a hard time and doubting my future because of my chemistry class, she reassured me that I could overcome it by putting in my best effort and asking for help. But I told her my classmates all understand what is going on, and I sit there clueless in class. Then she hit me with a question that changed everything. She asked me, "Do you really think that their knowledge comes naturally or that they study, ask for help, and struggle at some point?" And that's when my eyes opened. It showed me that everyone has their struggles, some hide them more than others, and that understanding comes from effort. In that moment, I realized I had been comparing my behind-the-scenes struggles to everyone else’s outer confidence and achievements.
Her encouragement changed my mindset not only in chemistry but in everything. I stopped letting my self-doubt take over. I started asking more questions and staying after class for extra help. During this time, my confidence was returning. So I retook a quiz that I recently did poorly on and received a 100% and when I saw that the score was more than just numbers, but proof that anything is possible as long as you are willing to put the work into it and push yourself beyond. Being able to tell Ms. Cabralda about my score felt like weights lifting off my shoulders. It helped me adopt a new mindset for college, learning to believe in myself and knowing there would be so many opportunities for me out there. She reminded me that asking for help is not a weakness but a strength for success.
After high school, I plan to further my education in Radiological Technology or Nursing. I have applied to many colleges and universities, including Kapiolani Community College, the University of Hawai'i at West Oahu, the University of Hawai'i at Manoa, and Grand Canyon University. As I take significant steps toward my future, I am excited to grow both academically and personally. I want to study in these specific majors because ever since I was a little girl, I watched my family members in hospitals while also being exposed to my parents fighting their addiction. These experiences shaped me into the person I am today, and they make me determined to help others and remind me that I want a better future than this. Although it may be difficult, I know not to adopt a negative mindset or let my self-doubt take over, thanks to Ms. Cabralda and her guidance. Whether it's a family member, friend, or even a stranger, I always have the urge to help because I know what it feels like to receive support from someone when I am having a difficult time and how much it can completely change one's life. Being in the health field gives me the most incredible opportunity to show empathy and share my passion for helping others, whether it’s through work or simply being there for them as a person to listen. Just as Ms. Cabralda once reminded me of my potential, I hope to one day be that source of reassurance and strength for someone else who feels like how I felt.