Mental health has been a defining part of my personal journey, shaping not only who I am but also the path I have chosen for my education and future career. My experience with an eating disorder and the process of recovery have profoundly impacted the way I see myself, others, and the systems we rely on for support. These experiences have guided my personal growth, informed my educational goals, and continue to shape how I plan for my future as a social worker.
For many years, my eating disorder was something I managed quietly. Outwardly, I was the dependable, high-achieving student who kept everything together. Internally, I was caught in rigid patterns and constant self-criticism. My eating disorder offered a sense of control when other parts of my life felt unpredictable. Over time, though, that control became suffocating, and my world grew smaller around it.
Eventually, I reached a point where managing it alone was no longer sustainable. I was referred to an intensive treatment program—an experience that forced me to confront how deeply my mental health was affecting every part of my life. Entering treatment meant stepping back from a practicum abroad that I had been excited to pursue. At the time, this felt like an unexpected detour from the life I had envisioned. In reality, it became a turning point. I began to understand that prioritizing my mental health was not a sign of weakness or failure, but an essential act of care. Choosing treatment required vulnerability, honesty, and courage, and it was one of the first times I allowed myself to truly put recovery first.
Recovery has not been linear. It has been a long, ongoing process of unlearning harmful patterns, building new coping strategies, and creating space for self-compassion. Over time, I have learned to ask for help, set and respect boundaries, and recognize my worth outside of achievement or control. This personal growth has transformed the way I relate to myself and to others. It has also shaped how I want to show up in the world professionally. My recovery gave me a deep understanding of what it means to feel stuck in silence and the profound difference it makes when someone meets you with steady, informed support.
At Belmont University, I am completing my Bachelor of Social Work with plans to continue on to my Master of Social Work and ultimately become a Licensed Clinical Social Worker. My career goal is to work with children and adolescents in school or community-based settings, supporting them through times of transition, crisis, and emotional distress. I want to be the kind of clinician who not only provides evidence-based care but also understands, on a personal level, the courage it takes to reach out for help.
My experiences in field placements have reinforced this calling. At Youth Villages, I spent a summer working with adolescent girls in a therapeutic group home. Many had experienced trauma, instability, or significant mental health challenges. I quickly realized that my comfort in crisis situations and my ability to stay grounded were strengths that grew out of my own journey. I facilitated life skills groups, supported residents through emotional dysregulation, and built trusting relationships with young people who often felt misunderstood. In my current placement with STARS in Nashville public schools, I work with students navigating issues ranging from suicidal ideation to family stress to disordered eating. My own history allows me to approach these conversations with empathy and attunement, while maintaining the professional boundaries and skills I’ve developed as a student social worker.
Recovery remains a central part of my life, and I approach it as an ongoing commitment. I maintain regular therapy sessions, stay connected to supportive people, and use structured routines that help me care for both my physical and mental health. Activities like baking, spending time with my dog, and moving my body in balanced ways have become grounding practices. I have learned to recognize early warning signs and respond to them proactively, reaching out for support rather than withdrawing. I know that maintaining my recovery is not separate from my future career; it is essential to it. To care for others well, I must continue to care for myself.
My journey with mental health has shaped me in ways I could never have anticipated. It has given me resilience, empathy, and clarity about my purpose. It has taught me how to sit with discomfort, how to find hope in hard places, and how to keep moving forward even when progress is slow. These lessons guide how I live, how I learn, and how I plan to serve others as a future clinician. My recovery is not just part of my past—it is an active, daily foundation for the life and career I am building.