Jumping up and down in my booster seat, kicking the back of my dad’s chair, looking at the local Best Buy entrance longingly as my mom pulled our SUV into the parking lot, six-year-old me was eagerly waiting to get my hands on Taylor Swift’s Speak Now Album. My parents didn’t share my excitement, but obliged to get me the CD for my beloved Hello Kitty CD Player. To be honest, I hadn’t known Swift until my friend from dance had me as a backup singer for her birthday-party performance of “Mean”. What really gripped me about this album was the purple dress she was wearing on the cover - I was obsessed with purple-everything. But, as I got my hands on that CD, I wouldn’t listen to anything else - not my Mom’s 80s music, not my Dad’s Irish music. “Mean”, “Never Grow Up”, “Sparks Fly”, “Mine”, and “Enchanted” consumed my life (and my entire family’s) as I listened to them on repeat - that is until “I Knew You Were Trouble”, “22”, “We Are Never Ever Getting Back Together “(Like EVER!), “Shake It Off”, and “Bad Blood” were released. Then, I hate to admit it, I fell off her music as she disappeared from the industry until Reputation - I hopped on the One Direction train (which took a similar toll on my parent’s earbuds according to them).
In my first semester of college, Midnights was released, and in the words of Taylor, herself, I thought to myself, “I forgot that you existed.” I felt like I was six again, standing in the Best Buy music section, on my tip toes trying to reach the Speak Now CD, admiring Taylor in her purple dress, wishing I was her age, spinning in the same beautiful dress. Well, now I was her age, and I still resonated with her lyrics. Midnights however, caused me to do a deep dive on her music: catching up on music I missed, watching her Netflix specials and previous concerts, and throwing myself into every theory and lyric dissection there was.
The Eras Tour was an event I watched from afar and lived vicariously through low-quality Instagram videos until the movie was released. I admired all the costumes and even planned out my own Reputation-“Eras Fit” if I were to go. Increasingly, Taylor Swift became a role model for me. Songs like “The Man”, “Look What You Made Me Do”, “Mastermind”, “Anti-Hero”, and others made references to her own struggles and experiences as a woman in an already tough industry. Her stories about overcoming adversity in the media and embracing herself through her own creativity have allowed me to do the same in my career as a student in Mechanical Engineering. She’s been truly inspirational to watch night after night, still managing to keep everyone captivated with even small aspects of the show.
Taylor Swift’s influence on my motivation has been perfectly encapsulated in her song “I Can Do It With a Broken Heart,” about her own experience on the Eras Tour. I’ve always looked to Taylor’s music to relate to, but “I was grinning like I’m winning, I was hitting my marks, cause I can do it with a broken heart” sometimes feels like an encapsulation of my experience studying engineering. The never-stop, competitive environment of my classes is a sure-fire way to make someone feel like they can’t do it, but if Taylor Swift can do the Eras Tour night after night while going through her own struggles, I can earn my engineering degree, because I can do it with a broken heart.