The first time I truly felt the presence of God was not in a church, nor during a Sunday service. It was in the quiet corner of my bedroom on a day I’ll never forget. I was 14, dealing with the hardest chapter of my life. My grandmother, who was the only person I knew who had a strong faith, had passed away. I had moved to a predominantly white town, where I experienced racism that made me hate myself and made me ashamed to be who I was.
On top of that, I was in and out of hospitals and doctors due to my sickness which made me struggle to breathe on my own without the help of a machine. I was watching my family slowly fall apart because of the mounting bills and other family issues we had to deal with. The weight of these things happening all within just 2 months felt too heavy for my young shoulders.
I questioned my faith constantly and felt like my spirit was drowning. I kept telling myself that no one could save me, not even God. I was a good kid. Straight-A student, Polite, respectful, always smiling, even when no one knew I was slowly breaking from the pain I hid. Over time, the cracks started to show. I began turning to drugs, self-harming, and finding comfort in the wrong crowd. I did this, not because I was rebellious, but because I didn’t know how to cope. I didn’t know how to heal the pain of loss, loneliness, or betrayal.
I remember the moment I was sitting on the floor, head in my hands, tears falling silently. I didn't want to live anymore and was ready to end it all. I couldn't take the pain anymore but part of me wanted a reason to stay. In desperation, I whispered, “Lord, I know I need you, please help me.” And in that silence, something changed. No voice, no thunder, no miracle, just peace. A peace that didn’t fix everything, but assured me that I wasn’t alone. I felt that God was there for me when I was broken and barely holding on and not there because I was perfect. That was the moment the seed of faith was planted, and it would slowly bloom into something beautiful.
My journey into Christianity wasn’t an instant change or clean. It was messy, filled with setbacks and spiritual battles. I had a hard time trying to get help and change all the bad habits I adopted and I struggled to be consistent with my faith but my journey was honest and real. I began to pray more, read scripture, and surround myself with people who genuinely loved God. I started to understand that faith didn’t mean perfection, it meant choosing God even in pain, even in doubt. The more I leaned into Him, the more He revealed His purpose for my life. When I improved my mental health I didn't walk away. God picks us up when we need him most and I knew I couldn't take advantage of that love so I continued to grow my faith to the best of my ability.
My relationship with God taught me that my story matters. That my scars, my tears, and my trauma can become a testimony. That my voice has power. I'm an example of someone who felt broken, confused, and overlooked, and relate to others walking the same dark path I once did. God gave me the strength to change, the courage to forgive, and the purpose to pursue more. I want to show people that his power is beyond comparison and he can fix what is broken when you instill your trust in him.
As I healed, I also grew. I worked harder than ever to maintain my grades and made the Principal’s List. I joined leadership roles like the Student Council and honor societies. I also poured my energy into basketball, where I became a ranked athlete in my conference. I found healthy outlets, discipline, and confidence that helped me stay grounded.
But most importantly, I found a calling. My dream is to become a successful Black business owner, not for the sake of wealth, but to give back to the communities that are like the ones I came from. I want to create opportunities for young people, especially those who feel unseen, just like I once did. I want to show them that faith and success aren’t mutually exclusive, that they can honor God in their careers, and that their past does not define their future.
I plan to attend Point Park University where I will pursue a degree in finance and marketing. My goal is to build a brand rooted in integrity, empowerment, and faith, that offers internships, mentorship programs, and community initiatives. I want to open spaces where creativity thrives, where education is accessible, and where people learn their value and power.
But to get there, I need support. Financially, the road to college is a challenge for my family. My parents serve the community every day by working for the NYPD as a lieutenant and police officer. Their sacrifices inspire me, but I know they carry a heavy load. Receiving the Pastor Thomas Christian Values Scholarship would be a blessing in ways words can’t fully express.
This scholarship isn’t just about money, it’s about mission. It would allow me to focus on my academics, serve my community, and grow my faith without the constant pressure of financial instability. It would affirm that my journey, though imperfect, is a testimony worth investing in. It would allow me to walk confidently into the future God has prepared for me.
I envision a future where my business funds scholarships for students like me, supports local churches and youth programs and launches outreach events that bring faith back into communities. I want to tell my story and share how God took a broken teenager in a dark room and turned her into a woman of purpose. I want to look into the eyes of young students who face challenges like me and say, “I’ve been where you are, and there’s hope. You are loved. You are chosen.”
The Pastor Thomas Christian Values Scholarship represents everything I stand for, faith, growth, leadership, and community. If chosen, I promise to honor that legacy in every classroom, every meeting, and every opportunity. I will walk boldly in the name of Christ, not because I’m perfect, but because I know who saved me.
God didn’t just pull me out of darkness, he gave me the tools to help others find their way. This scholarship would help me to build something far bigger than myself: a future where faith, business, and purpose collide to change lives.
Thank you for considering my application. I pray that this essay shows not only who I am, but the God I serve for he is faithful, forgiving, and forever present.