Sitting on the bench at recess, I remember the kickball rolling toward my feet. My arm was in a cast from another injury, and before I could react, someone yelled, "Get the ball, you stupid cripple." I picked it up and threw it back without saying anything, my face red, wishing I could disappear. I was smaller than most of my classmates and seemed to spend every season dealing with an injury, and more than the pain, I struggled with always feeling like I was falling behind.
For a long time, I tried to fix that by seeking approval from other people. I wanted to be seen as athletic and capable, and when I wasn't, the more I cared what others thought, the more control I gave them over my confidence. That is still a weakness I watch for in myself. But somewhere in high school I realized I could not control my size, my injuries, or anyone's opinion. I could only control what I did with my time. So I started showing up for myself instead, riding my moped to the gym almost every day, taking school seriously, and pushing through Osgood-Schlatter in both knees and a torn meniscus in wrestling. I learned that confidence built through effort lasts longer than confidence built through approval.
My faith is a big part of why I kept going. As a Christian, I believe the opportunities I have were given to me, and that it would be wrong to waste them. That belief shows up as gratitude and a sense of responsibility to use what I have for more than myself. As president of our Fellowship of Christian Athletes, I try to help other people find that same steady, grounded confidence that my faith gives me.
That is where most of my energy has gone. Because I know what it feels like to feel overlooked or behind, I try to create opportunities that help other people find confidence in themselves. As Vice President of my county's Youth Advisory Committee, I helped direct over $75,000 a year toward youth mental health and substance-abuse prevention, and I learned that money isn't just numbers, it's a chance to help someone build something they can grow. I founded my high school's first Fishing Club and grew it from nothing, learning how to make an idea sustainable through teamwork and community support. I have also organized a community gear swap, volunteered through an ice storm that left families without power, and made cards for seniors who were alone.
My dream is to keep building. I plan to study entrepreneurship and finance at the University of Michigan's Ross School of Business, and instead of chasing a title job, I want to start something of my own and use it to create opportunity in small communities like mine. In Charlevoix, capital and chances are scarce for someone with an idea and no track record, and too many people my age feel they have to leave to build anything. I want to be someone who helps them stay and build here.
As college costs climb, this is where the scholarship would make a real difference. I work over twenty hours a week through the season to help pay my own way, and support like this would let me put more of my energy into learning and serving instead of just covering the bill. More than that, I would be honored to carry forward what this scholarship stands for. I never got to meet Treye, but the life his family hoped he would live, faithful, intentional, and meaningful, is the life I am trying to build. I want to earn that through the way I show up, the things I build, and the people I lift along the way.