Undeniably, The core values: self-respect, honestly, integrity, and flexibility helped me rebuild how I saw myself. Growing up as the oldest daughter in a first generation family came with its challenges. For me, everything was a first. From my experiences down to things as simple as what clothes I wore, everything was a new experience. These experiences had in turn affected my core values. This was not an occurrence only for me, but for my family as well. I had no one older than me with the experience that I to turn too (aside from my parents) and look up too. A thing that naturally comes with first time experiences were mistakes. This is important to me because, growing up, I've dealt with battles time and time again with my self-imagine and self-esteem. These same core values helped me rebuild how I saw myself.
For instance, looking back at it, the amount of time I've spent subconsciously comparing myself to others, nitpicking at every little flaw I had, shunning the person I saw in the mirror, and failing to realize that I did not need fixing was such a prevalent part of my life. The negative thoughts and views I had about myself made its way into my everyday life, so not only did I perceive myself to not be worth it, that's how I carried myself too and thinking back at the disregard I had for my own life will always be a painful memory. It was a negative mindset that took over my life. Even till now, there are moments where I needed to remind myself that I am indeed worth it. I matter just as much as anyone else, and that I love myself. Not only that, but also accepting myself.
additionally, I used to think that once I loved myself, that everything would be good. My self-esteem would rise significantly, and there would be nothing else to worry about, but I was wrong. You could find yourself beautiful and still hate and be disappointed in yourself, and that was exactly what I faced. I realized that I was just loving and accepting one part of myself, when it could be every part of me. Accepting every part of me, my flaws and my strengths, was something I needed to work on. Learning not to be so hard on myself and that I was indeed human, that I wouldn't be perfect.
Furthermore, Despite the hardships I may have faced along the way, really incorporating these values into my life has really helped me. Have self-respect and not letting anyone or myself treat me terribly. Being honest with myself and others, as well as being flexible. If something doesn't work out, I make accommodations and move on. that was my Journey in self-love and this was thanks to constantly reminding myself that I am worth it, and sticking to my core values. And In fact, that journey never ended, having to stay at home had resulted in my surrounding myself with supporting friends online who helped me change my views and mindset. Even till today I am still undergoing my personal growth and progressing through my goal of reaching 100% self-love and the change in mindset had been one of the most refreshing changes I brought to myself that I would never regret.