I stood with my feet apart, hands overhead, and fingertips touching to form a triangle creating the letter A with my body. Dance choreography was familiar to me, but choreographing a musical was not. As ten other high schoolers stood behind me to learn choreography, I was pushed out of my comfort zone. All day I felt anxious about this moment, the beginning of teaching a new dance. Once it was there, my nerves were transformed into excitement. Staring at the brick wall of the school hallway, I heard feet shuffling as they imitated my movements. Although I was unsure if they were getting it correct or if they would like the dance, I did not turn around yet. I pushed myself to teach the next couple of steps despite the self-conscious feeling in my stomach. Until then, I had always stuck to what I knew, which was dance, and I was afraid something new would take away my focus and commitment to dance. However, I learned the value of stepping out of my comfort zone when I joined theater, which has driven me to want to pursue a career as a musical theater choreographer. Drawing on past success, I was eager to continue teaching the choreography for Matilda the Musical.
Half an hour had passed. I felt more comfortable thanks to the theater kids’ welcoming spirits relieving some of my anxiety. We sat on the floor with our knees up and hands back to create an M. I laughed to myself as I demonstrated the next letter, where we were on our hands and knees, feet in the air, and a straight body making the diagonal of the letter N. Sitting criss-cross, I observe everyone giggling about high schoolers rolling around spelling out the alphabet with their body. Watching for a moment as they practiced and helped each other, I noticed the feeling in my stomach had changed to warmth. A year prior, I rarely considered singing, acting, or being a creative director. In this moment, I realized how much I had limited myself.
Crossing our arms to create an X, the choreography was coming together successfully. I asked if anyone had questions before cleaning up the dance. Most of the actors had minimal dance experience, yet they were eager to learn. It filled me with joy getting to walk through steps until they felt confident. At the end of rehearsal, as I watched the final run through, I felt the corners of my mouth raise and my heart fill with pride. I saw smiles and confidence radiate from the students as they moved their hands over their heads to create an O. The growth in the students in such a short time made me realize the growth I too had experienced since opening the theater door - as a performer, leader, and human being. I found a new home in the school’s auditorium and a new comfort zone, where my passion for dance blossomed into the aspiration to choreograph musicals- hopefully one day on Broadway.
When learning to write, you start with the 26 letters of the alphabet. Once you master those, you open the door to words, sentences, and eventually complex paragraphs. While I had always been driven, I confined myself to the 26 letters. By taking chances and stepping out of my comfort zone in theater, I began my journey to infinite words. Theater opened my eyes to a world of possibilities and gave me the confidence to pursue new opportunities in life.