Having been diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder nearly a decade ago, I am deeply familiar with the importance of living a balanced life. After being prescribed multiple medications that did not work, I was told that my depression was treatment-resistant and left to my own devices. I was in high school, and while this conversation with my psychiatrist initially made me feel hopeless, I decided that I would not let my diagnosis define my entire life. I found a new therapist, took up distance running and went vegan, all of which worked for some time. I graduated high school, started college, and grew so much as a person. I had a routine that made me feel full of life and joy.
Unfortunately, the pandemic hit and life collectively stopped when we went into quarantine. All of the progress I had made crumbled- I was alone in my apartment with only my depression to keep me company. Eventually, after the seemingly universal pandemic weight gain and self-cut bangs, I realized that if I did it then, I could do it again: I knew how to get better.
It took some time and a lot of effort, as all good things do. I started by focusing on eating nutritious, filling meals: homemade curry with seared tofu, bone broth soups with fresh vegetables, savory quinoa with ginger and turmeric. Eating these meals mindfully, I reflected on what I was grateful for and on my short and long-term goals. Knowing from experience that exercise has a huge impact on mental health, I began doing yoga in my apartment and started running in a nearby deserted parking lot, regularly logging 11-12 miles. These practices helped me survive the quarantine and the new online and asynchronous normal that ensued.
Now, I make sure to follow my routine and frequently revisit what is and is not contributing to my growth. My partner and I take a new hiking trail and cook a new recipe once a month. I try my best to stay up to date on new health information, and recently began incorporating magnesium into my supplement routine (after reading a study which hypothesized that treatment-resistant depression could be alleviated with the addition of magnesium in the case of deficiency). I make sure to exercise frequently, taking walks and doing low-impact workouts when I need a pick-me-up. Though I will always struggle with my mental health, I find it is so useful to reflect on the progress I have already made and to be grateful for all of the lovely "things" that surround me: supportive friends that I can reach out to, a loving partner who helps me stay on track, a future career that I am so excited to pursue.
College is a lot of work. Though I love what I study, I'm very often short on time, up much later than I'd like to be, and stressed about juggling so many responsibilities. Learning to manage my time more wisely and working hard to make enough time in my schedule to breathe, heal and relax has been vital to maintaining my mental, physical and emotional well-being. I will continue to learn and grow in every way that I can to become the best possible version of myself. Health is a process and I am proud of my journey so far.