When I was 17 years old, my eyes were opened in a new way to the evil that exists in the world, but also to how beautiful a little bit of kindness can be.
I grew up in a large family and was lucky enough to have had 17 wonderful years with my great-grandmother, who was a survivor of the Holocaust. Every Shabbat for as long as I can remember, I slept over at her house. Her biggest joy in life was caring for me and her other 13 great-grandchildren.
Towards the end of her life, her memory began to diminish and she would get stuck in these episodes where the time and place were not clear to her. One day, while my mom was in the shower, my aunt called her in a panic. I answered, and not realizing it was me on the other end of the phone, she told me that the hospice providers said my great-grandmother, or Nanny as I called her, had at most 2 days left to live. Immediately, I got in my car and drove to her house. Shoving my way into her home, I ran to her bedroom to find her wailing in a way you see in horror movies. I was scared, but as I approached her, things changed.
She had been fighting her nurses who were trying to get her out of the wheelchair and into bed and to take her medication. At the time, she thought her hospice nurses were the same people she watched slaughter her entire family. She kept yelling in Yiddish, screaming in such fear you could feel the goosebumps appear on your body. And then she saw my face. Although she didn't know who I was, I could tell I brought her comfort. She began to calm down while I got settled on my knees, holding her hand, and telling her it was all going to be okay. I got her to take her medication and get into bed. I got in beside her and listened to her talk about what she had experienced on the day she had been living in her mind. She then called me by the name of her younger sister who had been killed in the war. I listened to her promises to protect me, to care for me, to make sure we didn't die in Auschwitz. Holding back my tears, I began to sing her a song she would sing to me when I was a baby, and she sang right along with me until she fell asleep.
It was on this day that I realized just how strong she was, and just how far a little bit of empathy and compassion will go. It was also the scariest day of my life because I got a glimpse into what my life would have been like if I had been born in the 1930s instead of 2004. I think about this day a lot, but now it reminds me of how the only thing that truly mattered to her was to be a good person and to show kindness to those who needed it the most. It was this day that I knew I wanted to be just like her. It was this day that I knew I wanted to spend my adult life taking care of others and showing them the light in the darkest of times. I knew then, that I wanted to be a nurse. Now, even though she is gone, she lives in my heart, inspiring and motivating me to achieve my goals.