Like many children who grew up with immigrant parents, I did not learn that I was undocumented until I turned 13. Due to the fear of deportation, my parents did not disclose my status until I was “old enough to understand.” Prior to this, I had lived a fairly normal life. I was going to school, I loved participating in extracurriculars, and besides the few times we had to move from city to city, I had a fair amount of friends. But when I asked my mom if I could travel out of state to an FTC FIRST robotics competition and was shut down with a harsh“NO,” I knew something was up. So as any normal child would do, I asked the big question…”Why?!” That’s when my mother sat down with me and confessed that she feared that Border Patrol would stop me at the checkpoint and take me away. She further explained that I was undocumented and that out-of-state and even out of town travel, was completely limited At the time, I didn’t grasp the meaning of being “undocumented” or as some refer to, “illegal.” To me, illegal meant to be unlawful or wrong. Maybe something even close to sin, but I never imagined myself to be considered “illegal.” After my mom gave me this hurtful but very necessary talk, I realized that I was not living a “normal” life. Two completely different realities separated me and those around me. And although it has been seven years since my little intervention, enough time for me to adjust to circumstances, I carry an inner battle on whether or not I belong here.
Being born in Mexico but growing up in the U.S. I struggled with what it meant to belong in the United States. As I reached my adolescent years, I questioned myself in terms of what my role in society is. Those uncertainties are usually answered through the transition into the workforce, exploring relationships, and pursuing a higher education. But for teens like me, these phases of growth are limited. With no legal status, ordinary things like getting a job, obtaining a driver’s license, and applying to college have become strenuous. Not only physically but psychologically too. Mentally, I feel like any other citizen around me. I talk politics, I volunteer at local events, and I have been able to serve people like Will Hurd. I am living proof of the “American Dream” that so many pursue. Nonetheless, people in power have painted me as the embodiment of crime and violence, and to many, my presence is unwelcomed.
Of course, hostility towards immigrants has always been part of American history. But over the past 4 years, microaggressions and violence have only increased. Often media outlets and politicians have painted people like me as a security threat rather than the children whose parents sacrificed everything for them. Today, I struggle to find out where I stand in terms of who I am are and where I belong. There is a small saying among us immigrants which goes, “Ni de aquí, ni de allá” Which translates to, neither from here nor from there. Do I feel like I belong here? No, not at all. But do I belong back home? Nope, not there either. However, this strenuous journey has not been in vain! Because through these struggles, I have found my calling. Being a Mexican immigrant and a fierce fighter for the rights of the Hispanic/ Latin community, I felt that my purpose in this world was to help my people. I have been through the struggles as a minority and experienced first-hand the political decisions that have impacted my community. I knew that my college career was going to be focused on something I felt passionate about and in the end was going to help me bring awareness. Studying International Relations and Global Studies would be one step closer to pursuing my career as a diplomat for the U.S. Someone who serves as a link between the countries and represents the trade, commerce, economics, as well as social and cultural aspects of individual countries. Especially humanitarian crises like immigration, health, and safety. Having had leadership positions in organizations like robotics, student council, and NHS/NTHS have given me the backbone it takes to listen, communicate, and organize. While extracurriculars like theatre have shown me how to step into the shoes of others and allowed them to speak their truths.
Although college is something that everyone should pursue, it comes with great financial responsibility. Not only do I come from a minority family but we are of low income. However, this did not stop me from succeeding in my academic career. I graduated high school in the top 2% of my class with a GPA of 4.18. As well as receiving accolades from robotics, theatre, NHS, NTHS, student council, choir, and UIL. I believe that my accomplishments in school and outside of school speak for my perseverance and determination to pursue a higher education. And if there is one thing I wish more than anything in the world, is to continue learning and breaking barriers. Getting the financial assistance from this scholarship would mean the world to me and my family. It would mean one less burden lifted off our shoulders and the new beginning of something spectacular. Not only would your scholarship help someone in grave financial need but you would help someone be one step closer to achieving their dreams.