I had to overcome mental, physical, and emotionally abuse. Faced the trauma from being raped and molested. I also struggled with substance abuse, particularly marijuana and alcohol. In the early part of my childhood is when I went through mental, emotional, physical abuse from my mom. I can say the enemy used this for a while against me. I carried that pain and hurt for a long time. In my head why is the one who gave birth to me, hurt me the most. The one who was supposed to protect me, picked drugs and men over me. She used to hit me with brooms, plates, or even choke me out if she couldn't find nothing to hit me with. She would leave me at the house by myself, so I had to take care of myself. We had to move around a lot, so I never had stability. This happened from the age of five through eleven. The cycle of abuse, drugs, and men. I was just a child yearning for her mother's love and approval. After many years of the cycle, I finally spoke out. I thought it was over, only for more abuse to happened. And under the roof where I was supposed to get help was, I molested. The molestation went on for years. I'm keeping all off this hurt and pain inside of me for years. Anytime I tried to speak out I was met with anger and backlash. So, I thought the only way out was suicide. I tried to take my own life at 17. But God saved me. I still face hardships, but I learned something better. I was loved and not alone in this world anymore. I didn't have to face these problems by myself; I don't have to have it all together. I could finally trust someone and rely on someone besides myself. I finally forgave the people who hurt me and has been healing ever since. I know this was all a part of God's plan, the devil can't touch you unless he gets God permission. I overcame my problems with God, and he help shaped me into a better person. He brought back my control over my life. I don't feel lost in this world anymore. What advice I give to somebody who faced the same circumstances I have is don't be afraid to be alone. Don't be afraid to speak out.

God has saved me many times from myself, my thoughts, and this life itself. I had to overcome mental, physical, and emotionally abuse. Faced the trauma from being raped and molested. I also struggled with substance abuse, particularly marijuana and alcohol. In the early part of my childhood is when I went through mental, emotional, physical abuse from my mom. I can say the enemy used this for a while against me. I carried that pain and hurt for a long time. In my head why is the one who gave birth to me, hurt me the most. The one who was supposed to protect me, picked drugs and men over me. She used to hit me with brooms, plates, or even choke me out if she couldn't find nothing to hit me with. She would leave me at the house by myself, so I had to take care of myself. We had to move around a lot, so I never had stability. This happened from the age of five through eleven. The cycle of abuse, drugs, and men. I was just a child yearning for her mother's love and approval. After many years of the cycle, I finally spoke out. I thought it was over, only for more abuse to happened. And under the roof where I was supposed to get help was, I molested. The molestation went on for years. I'm keeping all off this hurt and pain inside of me for years. Anytime I tried to speak out I was met with anger and backlash. So, I thought the only way out was suicide. I tried to take my own life at 17. But God saved me, I was laying on the floor crying giving up. Then a warm feeling was felt throughout my entire body. I seen and felt this glow. That's when I started to read my Bible. And been reading it ever since then. I still face hardships, but I learned something better. I was loved and not alone in this world anymore. I didn't have to face these problems by myself; I don't have to have it all together. I could finally trust someone and rely on someone besides myself. I finally forgave the people who hurt me and has been healing ever since. I know this was all a part of God's plan, the devil can't touch you unless he gets God permission.

The most meaning relationships that shaped me who I am today is my fiancé, and my children. I had a very troubled childhood and past, I've overcome a lot of obstacles with them and for them. I had to overcome my childhood trauma so I wouldn't pass them to my children. Things that I had to overcome was childhood abuse mental, verbally and physical. Faced trauma from being molested and raped. I also struggled with substance abuse, particularly alcohol and marijuana. I suffer from PTSD, abandoned issues, and severe trust issues to this day. My fiancé helps me by being a listening hear and someone I could trust. I know it doesn't sound like a lot but growing up how I did. It was hard to let people in, and to trust them. In my head since family can do me wrong everybody else will too. I can vent to him without facing backlash, being yelled at, or being judged. I don't have to be punished for expressing myself. Since it was my own family members who hurt me. My brother who violated me, my mother who abused me in many ways than one, and sisters who hurt me. Everybody but him has tricked me, lied to me or on me, or betrayed me in any type of way. He helps me communicate better and help me with my triggers. He's the person who held me when I cried, He was there at every delivery and doctor appointment's, even nursed me back to health when my body was giving up on me and failing. I have 3 kids, one is not by my fiancé, but my twins are. He doesn't make a different or treat me less because of it. My fiancé and I were jobless together, homeless together, hungry together but we never left each other side. No matter how tough and rough things got for us we never left ever other side. During those times when we found God together as well. I've lost many people in my life, not only due to death, but growth. He taught me it's okay to learn on other people. I know I've talked about my fiancé a lot, but he's truly has grown me into a better and different person. Once I had my children my eyes widen in a different way. Made me realize the family I'm creating is better than that surround me. They way my mood can go from bad to good when I see them. To see them laugh, smile and play warm my heart up. I truly understand now when people say my kids are my pride and joy. They brought a light into my life. They made this life worth fighting for. I need this scholarship to better their lives and mine. I want them to have a better life than me. We don't have to be in a mansion. I don't want them to know the struggle of living paycheck to paycheck, lacking food, or having to grow up fast and miss out on just simply being kids.

Why I have decided to purse a career in the veterinary field is because I always loved animals. I used to bring home cats , dogs , birds , whatever I found while walking home. I used to nurse the animals back to health. I used to save butterflies, mousses, and other things people were scared to touch. I’ve been wanting to become a veterinarian since I was in 5th grade. I’ve always wanted to get a bachelors degree in veterinary and a minor degree in business. I used to use my money I saved to buy the animals food , clothing, and other things they’ll need. I view animals just like I do humans . We deserve the best they deserve the best.Animals breathe , eat just like we do. So they deserve someone with passion and dedication. I’ve faced many problems. My dad hasn’t been in the picture since I was six. I seen him one more time when I was eleven. He gave me some school supplies, he “brought” for us. But his girlfriend told us somebody at church gave it to him for us . Since we were leaving Memphis and at the time my Godparents had us. I’ve been home to home since the age of 1. Me and my mom don’t have a good relationship. I stayed with her from the ages 5-11. Through the years , I dealt with mental , physical and emotional abuse. That’s why we left Memphis. But it was the same way when we moved. (We … me and my older sister.) I’ve had to adapt to my new environments. Whether I’m in Mississippi, south Memphis , north Memphis, or east Memphis. I left Mississippi last year. Ive been on my own since. Of course I had help but nobody had enough room , or can’t afford to have another kid in their house. In the past year alone , I lost a lot of love ones . My friends (Tae, Herbert, and Jaylon) , my grandmother ( Barbara Benson), and my aunts (Buffee and Joyce brown) .This year 23-24 has been really hard. God has took me through some things , but he always brought me out. I just want to thank you for reading this. And I hope you choose me as a candidate for this scholarship. I need everything I can get , I got accepted to Christian Brother University. I just need more funding.

Someone who inspired me is Maya Angelou & Oprah Winfrey. I feel like I can relate to these women. They both went through it physical, mental, emotional abuse. These women didn’t experience a childhood neither did I. These women didn’t allow their past to determined their future. The both survive being sexual assaulted, and they story help me to tell mines. Nobody can’t ever make me understand why , why did that happen to me. Since we were leaving Memphis and at the time my Godparents had us. I’ve been home to home since the age of 1. Me and my mom don’t have a good relationship. I stayed with her from the ages 5-11. Through the years , I dealt with mental , physical and emotional abuse. That’s why we left Memphis. But it was the same way when we moved. (We … me and my older sister.) I’ve had to adapt to my new environments. Whether I’m in Mississippi, south Memphis , north Memphis, or east Memphis. I left Mississippi last year. Ive been on my own since. My dad hasn’t been in the picture since I was six. I seen him one more time when I was eleven. He gave me some school supplies, he “brought” for us. But his girlfriend told us somebody at church gave it to him for us . Both women believe in God. While I was dealing with all those things , I just remembered how God made an impact in there life . As well as mines. ”And I am convinced that nothing can ever separate us from God’s love. Neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither our fears for today nor our worries about tomorrow—not even the powers of hell can separate us from God’s love.“ ‭‭Romans‬ ‭8‬:‭38‬ ‭NLT‬‬. I don’t let these obstacles stop me. I know I am better than that. I just want my dream to come true. I’ve been wanting to become a veterinarian ever since I was a little girl. And I’m just close to coming true. I just need a little more help to reach my dreams. So please consider me as an option for the scholarship. I know there’s people who is worse off than me. Thank you for reading this and considering me as an option for scholarship. You know my story. But my story doesn’t in here keeps going.