One trait most people don’t know about me is that my parents are divorced. Growing up, I was surrounded by all of my friends that had picture-perfect families with happily married parents. As a child, I always dreamt of this lifestyle and feeling of security. I was embarrassed to tell others that my parents were divorced or that I had a parent who struggled with substance abuse and was incarcerated. There were many instances when I have had to be brave and take on the parental role that my drunken father and absent mother could not fulfill. Due to these unusual circumstances, I have felt like an imposter in my own life, in the sense of being among my peers and not letting them know of my family situation. I can not think of a single time my parents have discussed the future with me, pushed me to be present in school, make good grades, or partake in extracurricular activities. My parents also didn’t have the money or resources to provide me with tutoring. In addition, I didn’t start taking honors and AP courses until I heard about the dual enrollment program at my school, due to my lack of knowledge regarding the difference between a standard and honors class. Meanwhile, all of my peers were collecting parent signatures for advanced classes to raise their GPA. Not for a moment had I even imagined college as an option for me, hence I didn’t think these matters applied to a low income family with limited education, such as mine. However, I knew I didn’t want to follow in my parents’ footsteps, unable to afford bills along with basic necessities, and complaining about their disinterest and instability within their careers. Therefore, I enrolled in the dual enrollment program that my high school offered and filed for financial aid because I thought it was my only hope at furthering my education without my parents’ guidance and financial help, being that I didn’t think I would have the opportunity to apply to college, much less get into one. During this time, my friends and classmates surrounding me at school discussed how they were guaranteed to get into top-notch universities due to their parents' involvement with the school, family company internships, and extensive SAT prep tutoring classes. Not feeling comfortable sharing that my parents hadn’t graduated high school, that one of my parents was incarcerated, and that my family didn’t have the financial means to get me into tutoring classes with my friends made me feel as if I weren’t good enough. I have always thought of myself as someone with deep passion, determination, and a solid work ethic, yet I still didn’t feel like I belonged. As a first generation college student I hope to feel a sense of accomplishment and belonging in college. In receiving the gift of furthering my education at a fine university as a first generation college student, I will be able to avoid the hardships that come with being first generation, such as lack of education and work, worrying about whether I’m going to have a place to sleep or food to eat, and potentially resorting to crimes or substance abuse. Consequently, growing up in a household where my parents faced significant educational and financial challenges, I was able to shape my understanding of success and hard work. Their struggles instilled in me a deep appreciation for the value of education and the opportunities it can create. Overall, this environment motivated me to excel academically and pursue opportunities that could lead to a better future.