The biggest challenge I faced during school occurred during my first two years of college, when I felt completely unsure about what I wanted to do with my future. Throughout high school, I had always been a strong student. I maintained a 4.0 GPA, earned straight A’s, and had a clear structure and sense of purpose. However, when I entered UCLA as a Business Economics major, that sense of stability quickly disappeared. I suddenly felt as though the structure and direction that had guided me for so many years had come crumbling down around me. Being a commuter student and simultaneously chasing my athletic dreams didn’t afford me a social support system of friends that could relate to any of the feelings or experiences that I was going through. I ultimately suffered in silence, kept all of my stress, imposter syndrome, and severe anxiety to myself. I felt that if I showed or told anyone how unstable I was feeling I would be seen as a disappointment, especially by my family who had always had high academic expectations for me.
Despite dedicating countless hours to studying, I failed multiple midterms and struggled to grasp the material in my courses. At the same time, I felt external pressure suggesting that if I did not pursue certain internships, join specific clubs, or follow a particular career path, I would not be successful. When I realized that I was deeply unhappy in my major and decided to change directions, I felt even more lost. It seemed as though everyone around me had already discovered their passions and mapped out their careers, while I felt uncertain about where I belonged.
I initially applied to switch into the Communications major, which is highly competitive at UCLA, but I was denied admission. Sociology had been my backup option, and I entered the major unsure of what to expect. However, after my first quarter of sociology courses, everything began to change. For the first time in two years, I felt genuinely excited about what I was learning. I had finally found a field of study that sparked my curiosity and allowed me to think critically about society, institutions, and human behavior. More importantly, I felt that I had found a place where I belonged academically.
Overcoming this period of uncertainty took time, but I was fortunate to have an outlet that helped me manage my stress: kickboxing. Throughout college, I chose to be a commuter student so I could continue training and competing. I competed nationally and internationally as a member of Team USA under the World Association of Kickboxing Organizations (WAKO). The discipline and mental resilience that I developed through kickboxing became a stable pillar in my life during a time when I felt academically lost.
My coaches often emphasized the importance of mental strength and perseverance, lessons that became essential as I navigated my academic challenges. When I felt like I was failing in school and disappointing my family, it was the discipline of the sport and the mindset it cultivated that reminded me not to give up.
Now, as I complete my fourth year at UCLA and prepare to graduate this spring with a degree in Sociology, I can see how that difficult period ultimately shaped my path. My experiences as a competitive athlete, coach, and student have inspired my goal of pursuing the Intercollegiate Athletic Leadership master’s program at the University of Washington. The program presents an opportunity to intentionally merge my passions for sport and education while preparing me to support student-athletes in their academic and athletic development. With the right support and opportunities, I hope to establish myself as a leader in the field of sports administration.
Through this entire journey—the countless training sessions that ran late into the evenings, the weight cuts, the extreme discipline and organization—I have stayed dedicated to finishing my degree at UCLA and am proud to be the first generation in my family to graduate from an esteemed university with a bachelor’s degree. I have been a commuter student all four years to continue training at gyms closer to home. The journey hasn’t been easy, but it has shaped how I lead by example, particularly emphasizing accountability and preparation. This experience also taught me that challenges do not define failure; rather, they provide the opportunity for growth and self-discovery. The foggy uncertainty I faced during those early years ultimately strengthened my resilience and clarified my goals. It reminded me that success is not always a straight path, but one shaped by persistence, reflection, and the willingness to keep moving forward.