I could write a sad, emotionally touching story about life before chronic pain, the medical gaslighting, and the impact it still has on me today. Still, then I’d sound like every other essay you’ve read. I’m writing because I need this scholarship to fund my dream. I need to know that college is worth it, because without it, I fear I’d be nothing. Ambition and fear have always been my biggest motivators, before I even had chronic pain. In the back of my head, that little voice always said, " Do it for your future self, do it for financial freedom. I always feared being stagnant, not smart enough, or talented if I worked hard enough. I’ve learned that if it’s your passion, would you give the world for that? Unlike many candidates, whether brilliant or talented, at least I can say I put my life, blood, sweat, and tears into perfecting my craft. From hospital stays to university lectures, I am told I do excellent work and am excited to see more. My grandmother recently passed away during the month of my birthday, which really took a toll on me. I was angry and couldn’t find the motivation to get back up. Then I played back her voicemails and realized this isn’t what she would want. She’d like to see me walk across that stage despite everything I’ve overcome. Losing my grandmother has been the hardest one. I chose human resource management because I always wanted to give back. Growing up, I used to volunteer with my grandmother for years. So, in honor of her, my goal is to open a children’s academy in her name. She was the sweetest woman anyone knew, never talked badly about anyone, and didn’t mind helping (even when her neighbors would ask to borrow toilet paper). She was the most giving woman I have ever known. She never stopped worrying about her girls: my mom, my sister, and me. Always wanted to make sure we were doing well. Therefore, I decided to name the children’s academy “The H.E.A.R.T. ) Helping, Every, Angel, Reach, Their Potential” because that’s where it all starts. I’ve always wanted to be a humanitarian. I never allowed my chronic illness to stop me from dreaming of how, once, but when it’s all said and done, I never wanted a dream as big as I wanted this one. Working with families and children has taught me much, even though I have none. They deserve a nurturing, patient, and educational experience, and I believe I could provide the best one.