Growing up, I always felt different from my peers. I went to a predominantly Hispanic and Asian Elementary school. But I always felt isolated, like I could never fit in with other kids, even though they looked like me. It was also challenging to make friends because school was easy for me; I thrived on learning, and my classmates often labeled me the "smart kid" or the "teacher's pet ."I usually cared for and taught my cousins, so I tried to help my peers, but they often disregarded me because they knew I was different. I quickly learned that my support could only go so far, especially as an elementary school student. My situation would stay like this until the fourth grade.
One of the most significant influences on my desire to teach was my fourth-grade math and science teacher, Mr. Algae. He was simultaneously the kindest and most challenging teacher I have had. His passion for making math engaging and fun made me never want to miss a class, and I could see how much he cared about his students' learning. However, he also had a strict side. As quick as he was to high-five you for getting the answer right, he was just as quick, if not quicker, to flip over your desk for forgetting to bring a pencil to class.
The fourth-grade science fair was a pivotal moment in my academic journey. During this project, I faced the pressure of expectations and reality for the first time. The week before the fair, Mr. Algae checked in with all the students about their progress. It wasn't until he called me up that I realized I had no progress to show. The pressure surmounted, and I had never felt anything like it before.
"How's your progress going, Angel?".
"It's good. I have the idea but haven't started the actual project".
"What do you mean you haven't started? The deadline is in a week. Are you dumb?"
That hit me like a ton of bricks, although it may not have been appropriate. Looking back, I realized I needed to hear it. I cried at home because I was terrified of failing. What if I'm not the "smart kid" anymore? I had nothing to show three days before the fair, and I cried in the middle of class. It wasn't until Mr. Algae apologized and guided me in the right direction that I found the courage to start. Luckily, I was able to finish just in time for the fair. When it came time for the teachers to judge my project, I was petrified. I tried to explain, but I knew my fate was sealed. I was prepared to cry right there on the spot. But before I could, Mr. Algae leaned towards me and said, "You did a good job not giving up, Angel. Be happy." I instantly felt the tears retreat, and my body relaxed. I even cracked a smile. Those few words changed my perspective on learning for the rest of my life. Mr. Algae showed me that the value isn't in the outcome. The value lies within the process. I still cried because I got the worst grade of my life. But if it weren't for Mr. Algae, I'd be following a completely different path right now.
My goal has always been to inspire others; this has been my goal due to so many experiences that have made me feel isolated, less than an afterthought to others. It's in my character to put others before myself. That's why I am working towards a teaching degree, not just for me but for all the students who don't have anyone to help them along the way. The minority household is very polarizing. It is a community that holds a substantial sentimental value for the family but often disregards communication and empathy. It happens all too often when children of color are left to teach themselves and be their biggest supporters because the parents are busy working to keep the water running and a roof over their heads. This is more of an issue with the systems and institutions that make it impossible for minorities to excel in academics and the workplace. However, it'd be dishonest not to acknowledge that parents are just as accountable for these problems within our community. I will target these issues when I get my degree and become a teacher. Growing up, we are taught the value of hard work, integrity, and family. But we aren't taught the value of empathy, kindness, and, most importantly, failure. In my case, my family set out a path of success for me. They forgot to tell me that the path would not be easy, and I would stumble, encounter obstacles, and fail. But I never felt comfortable telling them how difficult it was because it'd be met with a "toughen up and stop complaining." With my degree, I will create an environment that fosters sympathy, dependability, and honesty among my students. My students will feel safe to express their struggles and to know that failure is not the end but an opportunity to learn and grow. I hope to instill this mindset in my future students, guiding them through their academic challenges with compassion and understanding. Every student needs a Mr. Algae in their life, and If I could be that for just one student, I'd accomplish my goal.