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Angelique Brown

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Bio

I want to become a professional artist in character design. As an entrepreneur, I would like to continue drawing custom orders for clients. Becoming an artist as been my dream since I was a little girl. I am working as hard as I can to achieve my dream.

Education

Poway High School

High School
2021 - 2025

Miscellaneous

  • Desired degree level:

    Bachelor's degree program

  • Majors of interest:

    • Visual and Performing Arts, Other
  • Not planning to go to medical school
  • Career

    • Dream career field:

      Animation

    • Dream career goals:

      Animator at an animation studio

      Sports

      Volleyball

      Club
      2018 – 20224 years

      Awards

      • No

      Arts

      • High School

        Illustration
        Yes
        2017 – Present

      Public services

      • Volunteering

        Samaritan's Purse — Box packer
        2021 – Present
      • Volunteering

        Family Life Church — assistant
        2018 – Present

      Future Interests

      Volunteering

      Philanthropy

      Entrepreneurship

      Dennis A. Hall Memorial Scholarship for the Creative Arts
      Art has always been my way of giving form to emotions that words can’t quite capture. Through it, I explore stories—some real, some imagined—but all deeply personal. My work often reflects memories, especially those that carry pain, anger, or sorrow. When emotions build up, when I feel overwhelmed and can't yell or hit a pillow, I turn to my sketchbook. Drawing becomes a way to release the tension inside me. I channel that energy into lines, shapes, and expressions. It’s not violence—it’s survival, and it’s healing. In a world that doesn't always make space for raw emotion, my art gives me a safe place to let it all out. One of the most difficult times in my life was when I was losing my grandmother. I didn’t know how to process the slow heartbreak of watching someone I loved fade away. At school, where I was expected to focus and keep going, I would draw to cope. My sketches often depicted a young woman curled up in space, covering her ears, lost in silence and sadness. Other times, I would draw faceless profiles, screaming into the sky—an expression of everything I wasn’t allowed to say out loud. It was my way of grieving when the world told me to stay strong. When my grandmother eventually passed, I felt like I had finally become the screaming figures I had been drawing for months. The pain was loud, unbearable. But I needed closure, so I created one final piece. I drew myself hugging her—she was in the little blue dress she was buried in, and I was in the black T-shirt and sweatpants I wore the last time I saw her. As I held her, her body faded into lanterns, floating into the night sky. It was my way of saying goodbye, of sending her spirit into the stars. Through that drawing, I gave my grief a place to rest. Now, years later, I realize most of my art still carries echoes of those difficult times—anger, loss, conflict. And I’m okay with that. My art reflects my truth. It doesn’t always have to be happy to be meaningful. In fact, I think there’s power in showing imperfection. We live in a world where people often hide behind smiles, but I believe art can be a reminder that we are all human. We all carry pain, even when we don’t show it. And in that shared humanity, there’s connection. My art may not always be light, but it is honest. It tells the stories that need to be heard—not just mine, but stories others might recognize in their own hearts. Through my work, I hope to show that it’s okay to feel deeply, to hurt, to heal, and to be imperfect. Because none of us are alone in that. And maybe, through art, we can remind each other that being human is enough.
      Churchill Family Positive Change Scholarship
      I’m pursuing a career in illustration—not just as a profession, but as a calling. Illustration is more than drawing or design; it’s a language of emotion, culture, and memory. It’s a way to speak when words fall short. While there are countless styles and branches of illustration, the path I’m most drawn to is storytelling. Stories have immense power. They shape our understanding of the world, connect us across cultures, and give voice to experiences that might otherwise be lost. I want to tell those stories—fictional and real, magical and mundane—but especially the ones that have never been told before. Stories silenced by fear. Stories crushed by heartbreak. Stories spoken, but never truly heard. Through my art, I want to give those voices a stage, a spotlight, a second chance to be seen and felt. There is something deeply human about capturing a moment, a feeling, a truth, and offering it to someone who needs it. Maybe it makes them feel less alone. Maybe it helps them heal. Maybe it opens their eyes to something new. That is what I hope to do with my work—to create illustrations that don’t just decorate space, but touch lives. Even if the traditional path of illustration doesn’t unfold as I hope—and I know life can be unpredictable—I’ll still keep telling stories. The tools and skills I’m learning now are not just career tools; they are lifelong instruments for connection and creativity. Whether it’s through books, visual essays, murals, or even small sketches tucked into letters, I’ll continue creating. Because stories don’t stop needing to be told, and I won’t stop trying to tell them. I come into this journey with passion, vision, and a willingness to learn. But what I don’t have is wealth or power. I’m not starting this path with financial security—I’m just one young woman with a heart full of dreams and a deep hunger to understand the world around me. I know there’s so much I don’t yet know, but that only makes me more determined to grow. I want to learn not just how to draw, but how to listen. To learn from people, places, and perspectives I’ve never encountered. To become an illustrator who doesn’t just create images—but creates meaning. I believe in the ripple effect of storytelling. One story can change someone’s day—or their life. One image can make someone feel seen. And if I can help even one person feel understood, then this path will have been worth it. So I’m asking for support—not just for me, but for the stories I hope to bring to life. Stories waiting in silence for someone to listen. I want to be that listener. I want to be that storyteller. And with the right help, I know I can be.
      Mark Green Memorial Scholarship
      I’m going to be honest—my mother and I cannot afford the cost of my education on our own. It’s not easy to admit that, but it’s the truth. We work hard. We do everything we can with what we have. But despite our determination, the weight of tuition, materials, and basic living expenses is more than we can handle alone. Still, I wake up every day with the same dream, the same fire inside me: I want to create art. Not just for myself, but for others. I want to bring people’s visions to life—ideas that they can’t create themselves, but wish to see become real. That’s where I come in. That’s the role I want to play in this world. I want to be the artist who helps people feel seen, understood, and uplifted. I want to turn imagination into something tangible, something they can hold onto, something that reminds them of their own potential and beauty. Even though money is tight, and the path forward isn’t always clear, I hold on to this dream because it gives my life meaning. Art is more than a hobby to me—it’s a language, a form of empathy, a force of transformation. I believe art can heal. I believe it can connect people across all boundaries. And I believe it can spark real change, both in the world and within ourselves. When I draw for someone—whether it’s a small sketch, a custom piece, or a simple design—they often light up. Their idea is no longer just a thought; it’s real. That moment is powerful. That’s what I live for. And I want to keep creating more of those moments, not just as a side project, but as my life’s work. But to do that, I need an education. I need the time, tools, and mentorship that only school can provide. I want to refine my skills, challenge myself, and learn how to use my art in even more impactful ways. I want to study techniques and technologies I’ve never had access to. I want to collaborate with other creatives, grow through constructive critique, and learn from people who’ve walked this path before me. That growth is not just for me—it’s for the people I’ll be able to reach and uplift through my work. I don’t dream of fame or fortune. I dream of meaning. I dream of being someone who others turn to when they need to feel inspired or understood. Like me, many people are going through difficult times. And like me, they may be searching for hope, for motivation, for a sense of purpose. I believe my art can be a part of that. But I also know that to be the artist I want to become, I need help. I need the support that will allow me to continue my education and take this passion to the next level. This isn’t just a scholarship application. It’s a piece of my heart. It’s my way of saying: “Please believe in me.” Not because I’ve had an easy path, but because I’ve kept going despite the odds. Not because I have all the answers, but because I have a vision—and the will to work tirelessly to make it real. With your support, I won’t just be another student chasing a dream. I’ll be someone who turns that dream into a purpose-one drawing, one painting, one story at a time. I’ll be someone who uses art not only to survive, but to help others thrive.
      Seymour Philippe Memorial Scholarship
      Being Latina means that family traditions run deep in my bones. It means I come from a culture rich in warmth, resilience, and connection. I’ve grown up in a neighborhood where my neighbors feel like extended family and my friends share similar backgrounds and values. We celebrate holidays with music, food, and laughter. We gather around the kitchen table and tell stories that have been passed down for generations. But being a person of color in this world also comes with silent burdens. Many times, those who aren’t people of color don't fully understand the struggles we face until they witness them firsthand. It’s only in those raw, unfiltered moments—when injustice stares them in the face—that conversations begin. I’ve been in those conversations. I’ve felt the ache of being unheard and unseen, and the hope that grows when someone finally begins to listen. It’s in these moments that I recognize the power of representation, and why it matters that voices like mine are not only heard, but celebrated. My Latin roots remind me where I come from. They pull me home to the smell of simmering spices in a kitchen filled with love, to the arms of my parents who have sacrificed so much, and to a home that has always embraced me, no matter what. No matter how far I go, that warmth follows me. It gives me strength. It gives me purpose. That purpose is art. Art has always been the way I express myself, a way to turn emotions into images and dreams into something tangible. Ever since I was little, drawing has helped me make sense of the world. It’s where I found peace, inspiration, and possibility. Now, I want to turn that passion into a career. I want to become an illustrator—someone who brings stories to life, who creates visuals for books, products, and brands. I want to use my creativity to move people, to help others see the world through different eyes. I know I still have a lot to learn. I have a foundation in drawing, but I don’t yet have the technical skills or professional experience to break into the industry. I don’t know where to start when it comes to building a career in illustration, and that’s where college comes in. College is more than a classroom—it’s a launching pad. It’s where I’ll sharpen my skills, find mentors, and discover new ways to grow as both an artist and a person. It’s the place that will help me turn talent into a lifelong profession. But dreams like mine don’t come without obstacles. My family and I aren’t wealthy. We live paycheck to paycheck, and while my parents give me everything they can, college tuition is more than we can afford. That’s why this scholarship means so much to me. It’s not just financial help-it’s hope. It’s a chance to break barriers, to honor the sacrifices my family has made, and to pave a path not just for myself, but for the younger siblings and cousins who look up to me. Receiving this scholarship would allow me to focus on what truly matters: my growth, my education, and my future. I am determined to succeed, not just for myself, but for my community. I want to show others that a young Latina girl with a dream can rise, create, and inspire. I want to become the kind of artist who doesn’t just draw images—but who draws people in, and shows them the beauty of stories that are too often left untold.
      Sunflowers of Hope Scholarship
      Winner
      Art is not just what I do—it’s who I am. It has been my only constant, my only refuge, my only true friend. When the world grew cold, and even colder within myself, art was the warmth that kept me alive. I didn’t have a typical childhood. While other kids were building friendships and laughing at recess, I was learning how to disappear. Bullies made sure I never forgot I was different, but they weren’t the worst of it. My harshest critic—the one who tore me down the most—lived in my own head. I was angry at myself, filled with a quiet, aching rage I couldn’t explain. I didn’t know how to be kind to myself. I didn’t know how to be myself. I didn’t speak much. Words felt heavy, clumsy, like they weren’t made for me. So I stayed quiet. Alone. But even in that silence, there was something waiting patiently for me to notice it: art. It was always there, like an open door I didn’t have to knock on. I’d pick up a pencil, and suddenly I was somewhere else. Somewhere safe. Somewhere honest. Drawing, writing, creating—it became the only language I trusted. When I couldn’t say “I’m hurting,” my sketchbook could. When I didn’t know how to say “I’m here, I matter,” my characters whispered it for me. Through art, I could finally breathe. I could finally be. I’ve never had a best friend. But if I had to name one, it would be art. It never yelled. It never walked away. It never asked me to be less. It never demanded an explanation. It just listened. And in return, it gave me a way to survive. There were nights I wanted to give up. Nights when the silence in my room felt louder than any voice. Nights when I wondered if anyone would notice if I just disappeared. But then I’d draw. Or I’d write. And somehow, the pain would become something beautiful. Something worth creating. Something worth staying for. Art taught me that my voice didn’t have to be loud to be heard. That I didn’t need to fit in to matter. That even broken stories can be worth telling—and that they’re often the most powerful ones. Now, I don’t create just to escape. I create to reach. I want someone, somewhere, who feels the way I once did—small, voiceless, invisible—to see my art and feel less alone. I want my work to be the hand I never had to hold. The light I never saw when I was stumbling in the dark. If I can make one person feel seen, then every tear I’ve cried will have been worth it. Art didn’t just give me purpose—it gave me life. It took a quiet, hurting child and handed them a pencil instead of a goodbye. And now, I’m here. Still healing. Still learning. But alive. And finally, finally free. That’s why I will never stop creating. Because art saved me. And now, I want to spend the rest of my life passing that gift on.
      Selin Alexandra Legacy Scholarship for the Arts
      Living with autism hasn’t always been easy, but I wouldn’t say I “suffer” from it—it’s simply a part of who I am. I’ve learned to accept it, not as something that limits me, but as something that shapes how I experience the world. There are even a few perks that come with being labeled as disabled. For example, I recently received a pass that allows me to visit any national park for free. Since I happen to love camping and spending time in nature, this turned out to be a meaningful bonus. One of the ways autism affects me is in how I learn and communicate. Learning certain subjects or concepts can take a bit more time, and socializing—especially with new people—can be a challenge. Not because I don’t want to connect, but because it’s often difficult to find the right words to say. It's not about being quiet or not knowing how to speak; it’s about how hard it can be to word things. Saying something as simple as “I need a break” or “I’m overwhelmed” can feel incredibly complicated. Another unique aspect of how I experience the world is how easily I can read people. It’s both a gift and a burden. I can often tell right away when someone is being disingenuous or when their energy doesn’t match mine. That sensitivity has made me very selective about the people I let into my life. It’s a way to protect myself, but it’s also made socializing harder because I naturally keep my circle small. I’ve learned that it’s not about quantity—it’s about the quality of connections that truly matter. When I was younger, I found inspiration in my older brother’s ability to draw. Watching him sketch with such ease sparked something in me. I wanted to be able to do the same. At first, I imagined that if I could draw well enough, I’d grab people’s attention and make friends. I held onto that fantasy, even if it was a bit unrealistic. But what started as a dream became something much deeper. Art quickly became my outlet. When I couldn’t find the words to explain how I was feeling, I turned to drawing. It became my way of venting my frustrations, especially during meltdowns or difficult emotional moments. Drawing wasn’t just a hobby—it was how I communicated. Each line, each expression, each scene I created told a story I couldn’t explain with words. It helped me cope, express myself, and find peace. Over time, my connection to art grew. What once was a tool for survival has now become a passion and a potential career path. I’ve come to see art not just as a form of emotional release, but as a future. If I continue to grow in my skills and education, I hope to turn this passion into something professional. If I succeed, I’ll not only be doing something I love—I’ll also be able to share that love with others. I’ll get to show people my perspective, my emotions, and the world through my eyes. Autism may influence how I move through life, but it doesn’t define my limits. If anything, it has given me unique strengths: a different way of seeing things, a deep emotional sensitivity, and a powerful drive to express myself. I am proud of how far I’ve come and excited for where I’m going. My hope is that through my art, I can inspire others—not just to understand me, but to feel encouraged in their own journey. Because at the end of the day, we all have something beautiful to share.
      Alexis Mackenzie Memorial Scholarship for the Arts
      I want to use my art to inspire people to stay strong and never let life’s challenges tear them down. Growing up, I faced a lot of emotional and mental battles. I was bullied, doubted, and constantly underestimated—not just by others, but by myself. I became my own biggest bully. I believed I wasn’t good enough, talented enough, or worthy of anything great. That mindset kept me stuck for a long time, and I know I’m not the only one who has ever felt that way. But in the middle of all that pain, I found something that gave me hope: art. Art became more than a hobby—it became a lifeline. It was something I could always return to, no matter how bad things got. It became a way to express what I couldn’t put into words. When I drew, I felt safe. I felt free. Each sketch was a small piece of my heart, a reflection of what I was going through and what I hoped to become. The desire to improve my art, to make the next drawing just a little better than the last, became my motivation to keep going. Over time, I began to create characters that embodied different parts of my story. I poured my emotions into their faces—the sadness, the anger, the quiet strength, and the hope that things could get better. Those characters told the story I was too afraid to say out loud. They showed my pain, but also my resilience. Through them, I began to heal, and I want others to experience that same healing. My goal is for my art to speak to people on a personal level. I want someone to look at one of my drawings and feel understood. I want them to know that they’re not alone in their struggles, that their pain is valid, and that they are capable of overcoming it. I want my work to be a reminder that progress doesn’t have to be big to be meaningful. Even the smallest steps forward can lead to incredible growth over time. If there’s one message I want to send through my art, it’s this: You can become better than you were yesterday. Every day is a new opportunity to grow, to improve, and to get closer to the person you want to be. That doesn’t mean striving for perfection. It means striving for progress. And in that journey, there’s beauty—even in the setbacks, even in the mess. I believe that if more people embraced the idea of growing through what they go through, it would create more compassion in the world. We’d all realize that we’re more alike than we are different. We’re all just people trying to find peace, happiness, and purpose. None of us are perfect, and that’s okay. So when people see my art, I want them to feel something. I want them to feel hope, strength, and a deep sense of connection. I want them to believe that their story matters and that they have the power to shape it. My art is a reflection of my past, my progress, and my purpose. And my greatest hope is that it inspires someone else to keep going, to keep growing, and to never give up on themselves.
      Rick Levin Memorial Scholarship
      To be completely honest, my special education classes weren’t what inspired me to pursue college. In fact, for a long time, they did the opposite. They made me feel like I wasn’t smart enough, like I didn’t belong in higher education. I was placed in an environment that constantly reminded me of what I couldn’t do instead of showing me what I could. I often felt limited, like I was too dependent to ever be successful on my own. College seemed out of reach—just another system that would expect me to fit into molds that didn’t suit me. Even the idea of community college didn’t feel right. It seemed like it would be more of the same—more classes that didn’t lead me anywhere I wanted to go. I didn’t want to spend years studying things like chemistry or biology when my heart was in art. I wasn’t interested in learning subjects that didn’t fuel my dreams. What I truly wanted was to create, to express, and to find a way to turn my passion for art into a career. That’s where my mother changed everything. She saw my potential, even when I couldn’t. She believed in my dream, even when I was close to giving up on it. She helped me discover a college focused entirely on art—a place where students learn not just how to create, but how to shape art into a real, meaningful career. That changed my entire outlook. For the first time, college wasn’t just about surviving—it became about thriving. It became about building a life I could be proud of. The path that brought me here was not easy. When I started middle school, I made a quiet promise to myself: to become better than I was yesterday. That promise became my compass. I started working on the things that challenged me most, beginning with patience. I struggled with learning things at the same pace as others. I often felt left behind, frustrated, and defeated. That frustration made me feel like I was less than—like something was wrong with me. But I’ve come to understand something important: I’m not stupid. I never was. I just need things explained in a different way sometimes. That doesn’t make me less capable; it makes me unique. That mindset took years to build, and I still have to remind myself sometimes. But accepting it changed how I saw myself. Another hard lesson I had to learn was how to ask for help. I hated it. It made me feel vulnerable, and I didn’t want to seem weak. But I had to teach myself that asking for help doesn’t mean I’m incapable—it means I’m willing to grow. And that’s strength. That’s courage. Perhaps the most important lesson I had to learn was how to love myself. For a long time, I didn’t. I was my own worst critic. I told myself I couldn’t do anything right. I lacked confidence and relied too much on others, not because I couldn’t try—but because I was afraid I’d fail. I had to break that cycle. I had to learn to believe in my own hands, my own mind, my own heart. The challenges I’ve faced—internally and externally—have played a major role in shaping who I am today. They taught me how to stand on my own. I realized early on that the world doesn’t slow down for anyone. It won’t always care about how I feel or what I’ve gone through. That’s a harsh truth, but it made me stronger. It taught me to be tough, to go with the flow, and to keep moving forward no matter what. But strength doesn’t mean hardening your heart. I’ve learned to protect myself, yes—to be tough as leather when I need to be—but I’ve also learned to stay soft where it matters. There are people who need understanding, who need tenderness, and I want to be someone who can offer that while still protecting my own peace. That balance is one of the hardest things I’ve had to learn—and one of the most important. My journey hasn’t been perfect, but it’s mine. Every difficulty I’ve faced has helped me grow—has given me the tools to rise above the limits that were once placed on me. I’ve learned to listen to my own voice, to chase my own goals, and to believe that I have the power to shape my future. My challenges didn’t stop me. They strengthened me. And now, I’m ready to use everything I’ve learned—not only to build a life as an artist but to live fully as myself.
      Lewis Hollins Memorial Art Scholarship
      My goal with art is to inspire others to embrace their own creativity—just as art once inspired me. It taught me to think beyond the edges of the page, beyond the borders of what I thought was possible, and gave me the courage to express myself in ways words could not. Speaking has never been my strength; where others find ease in conversation, I often stumble. But through art, I found a language that speaks for me. Each brushstroke, each line, each shade becomes a voice, telling stories I once kept silent. Art has always been more than just a hobby—it is my way of communicating with the world. It captures the things I struggle to say, the emotions I can’t explain, and the moments that feel too fleeting to hold. Whether it's a memory, a dream, or a wound that still aches, art gives me the means to express it with honesty and depth. It transforms my thoughts into something tangible, something others can see and feel. Through it, I can whisper the truths I carry, and perhaps someone else will recognize their own story in mine. For me, art is also a form of healing. My past holds shadows that still linger, and there are days when old pain resurfaces like an unwelcome echo. On those days, I turn to my sketchbook or canvas, not to run from the pain, but to give it shape—to understand it, to release it. Drawing helps me cope. It offers a moment of escape, a moment of clarity, or even just a moment of peace. And though the pain may return, softer or louder, I meet it with art in hand. Another important goal I have with my art is to remind people that they are not alone. For a long time, I felt completely isolated. I didn’t know how to ask for help or even if I was allowed to. I carried everything in silence, thinking no one would understand. But art was there for me—it listened without judgment, comforted without question. And now, I want my work to do the same for others. If someone sees a piece I’ve made and feels understood, even for a second, then I’ve done something meaningful. There are people out there who are hurting in ways I may never fully grasp, but I hope my art can be a small light in the dark for them. I want to say, through every line and color: “You are seen. You are not alone.” Looking ahead, I know my relationship with art will evolve. It already has. What began as an outlet has become a purpose. I’ve promised myself to grow—not only as an artist but as a person—and to let that growth reflect in every piece I create. With each passing year, I aim to refine my craft, to challenge myself, and to pour more truth and heart into my work. Because art saved me—and I believe it can inspire and heal others too.
      WCEJ Thornton Foundation Music & Art Scholarship
      I want to make a positive impact on the world through my art by showing people that they, too, can create something meaningful. Even if someone doesn’t feel confident in their artistic abilities, I believe there’s always a way to express what’s inside. Art isn’t about being perfect—it’s about being real. Sometimes, all it takes is the courage to try. I hope that by sharing my work, I can inspire others to believe in their own creativity and take that first step, no matter how small. You never know who you might inspire in return. One of the most important messages I want to share through my art is that no one is truly alone. For a long time, I believed I had to hide my pain and carry it in silence. I thought reaching out made me weak. It took me years to understand that asking for help is one of the bravest things a person can do. And I know I’m not the only one who has felt this way. There are so many people who are still holding their struggles in the dark, afraid to speak up, afraid they won’t be understood. Through my art, I want to reach those people—the ones who feel invisible, unheard, or overwhelmed. I want my work to say what words sometimes can’t: You are not alone. Your pain is real, and it matters. And even in the middle of it, there is still beauty, hope, and light to be found. If my art can make even one person feel seen or a little less alone, then I’ve done something worthwhile. I want to create something that not only expresses who I am, but also helps others heal, grow, and maybe even discover something beautiful in themselves. That’s the kind of impact I hope to make—one honest piece at a time.
      Children of Divorce: Lend Your Voices Scholarship
      Divorce is one of the most painful experiences a married couple can endure, but what’s even more heartbreaking is when a child is forced to witness it—especially at a young age. That was the case for me. My parents separated when I was nine years old. Growing up, I was always taught that marriage was sacred, something that should never be broken. So, when I heard them say they were divorcing, I was devastated. I felt helpless and confused, and for a long time, I believed it was somehow my fault. That belief made it even harder to come to terms with what was happening. At the time, I was an extremely emotional child. I’m on the autism spectrum, so making friends was already challenging. On top of that, I was constantly bullied both at school and outside of it. The divorce only made coping with school more difficult. Home no longer felt like a safe place—it was falling apart just like everything else around me. I carried that stress to school every day, like a stain on my shirt that everyone could see but no one would help me clean. And each day, more stains would pile on. When I got bullied, asking for help wasn’t easy. I struggled with expressing myself and putting my feelings into words. When no one came to help, sometimes I fought back physically. Of course, that only got me into trouble. I had to work hard not to lash out, but every so often, a curse word would slip, and I’d get punished again. It felt like I was always in the wrong, even when I was simply trying to protect myself. The bullying didn’t stop at school—it followed me onto the school bus. I was already exhausted from the situation at home, and the added torment during the commute pushed me to the edge. A younger boy seemed to notice how emotional I was and would jab his knuckles into my back and ribs. I tried to avoid him, but he always found a way to hurt me. When I finally reacted and fought back, I was the one who got in trouble—not him. My mother understood, but the school didn’t. The boy never faced any consequences, and I felt invisible. Coming home, my mother was the only parent who was truly present. She was the one who corrected me when I was wrong, taught me how to stay clean, and introduced me to cooking, which I learned to enjoy. In contrast, weekends at my father’s house were lonely and dull. My dad always seemed tired and distant. He would spend hours outside carving wood while my sister and I were left alone inside, watching TV. Even when he was inside, he was glued to his phone, rarely engaging with us. There wasn’t much food in the house, and I don’t recall him having a stable job. He seemed to be lost in his own sadness, which slowly began to affect me as well. Over time, his depression rubbed off on me. I became angrier at school and experienced longer meltdowns. I was always hungry, which led to overeating as a way to cope with my emotions. I started gaining a lot of weight—much of which I still carry. I stopped trying to make friends and distanced myself from everyone. I could sense people whispering behind my back or giving me judgmental looks. Some teachers even seemed to give up on me. Eventually, I gave up too. I leaned solely on my mother, who remained my only true support. One night, everything became too much. I was having a meltdown in my room while my mother tried to talk me through it. In a fit of rage, I stormed out, slammed the door, and ran downstairs. My sister was doing her homework at the dining table, watching as I rushed into the kitchen. I opened a drawer and pulled out a steak knife. I had made up my mind—I was going to end it all. Just before I could raise the knife, my mother ran in and snatched it from my hand. She hugged me tightly, so tight I couldn’t move—tight enough to hold me together while I broke down in her arms. I sobbed uncontrollably. She cried with me. That night, she saved my life. Years later, the effects of the divorce still linger. I’ve grown distant from my father, whose bitterness remains unchanged. We speak occasionally, but I no longer feel the need to see him in person. Although time has made it easier to cope and even laugh about the past, the pain left a scar. The heartbreak, depression, and anger didn’t disappear, but they became part of a distant memory.
      Angelique Brown Student Profile | Bold.org