Growing up in a predominantly white, middle-class neighborhood, one of the first lessons I ever learned as a child was that "dreaming big" was something I'd never be allowed to do. I was too feminine, too neurodivergent, too black, too queer, too poor. Dreams were for normal people. People with two parents, people who could afford to buy lunch or go on vacations over the summer. People who were straight and white, who ate normal food and had normal hair. People who aren't me. Every day of my life, I have had to prove myself. That, even though I looked and acted different, I could keep up with my classmates. That I wasn't dumb or lazy or uncooperative. That I could be a team-player, that I could put in the work required of me, that I could even surpass their expectations. That I deserved the same treatment as everyone else, because I was just as human. Now I'm an adult--at least, in the eyes of the law--and I see the path that mentality will lead me down. I'll either end up in prison or in a minimum wage, dead-end job for the rest of my life.
Unfortunately for the students, parents, teachers, and neighbors of my childhood, that lesson I learned early on didn't stick. I know what those people expect of me, and I don't care. Because I'm not a dreamer, I'm a doer. I don't have a dream; I have a goal. Language, alongside social welfare, has been a passion of mine that hasn't died out, despite growing up in a very monocultural area, where languages other than English were pretty much non-existent. So far, I've achieved fluency in French and Spanish, and I've started mastering mandarin as well. My passion for language happens to align with my future career goals as well. I want my career to matter, I want to help make the positive changes I think the world needs, and working for the United Nations is the way in which I intend to do so.
Unfortunately for me, I've encountered a wall too big to clear on my own. Too big to clear, even with the help of my mother and brother. A financial wall. Even after applying to more than 40 scholarships, obtaining state and federal aid, and accepting the few loans banks are willing to lend me, there's remains a $30,000 wall preventing me from obtaining my degree. Preventing me from getting that entry level job translating for a large corporation, from moving up the ladder and gaining experience, from reaching my goal. This scholarship would almost completely erase that wall. College is the trial I need to gain access to everything the world has to offer me, even the things it thinks I can't obtain. Should I be granted this scholarship, I would not only be achieving a goal, pursuing a passion and breaking down stereotypes, I'd be showing everyone in my school, my town, my state--including the newest generation of children who aren't "normal"--that Dreaming Big is for everyone.