I am Alissa Jacovetti, a current college junior who is studying to earn a bachelor's in moderate to intensive needs special education with hopes of becoming a special education behavioral intervention specialist and contained classroom teacher. I have a passion for behavioral special education specifically because when I was a child I felt like a teachers and adults did not understand why I was upset and neither did I. I would get really angry really quickly and I did not like it, but I did not know a different way of working through how I felt. When I was a senior in high school I did a program through my vocational school called, Teacher Education Exploration. I was able to learn more about child psychology and how to teach kids that have different needs. Through this I was able to realize that there are students out there that feel angry similar to how I did, or they have emotional regulation difficulties because of trauma or other personal mental reasons. I knew that I wanted to help those kids who are struggling like I did because I did not have anyone to help me. I wanted to help them know there are other ways to get out the emotions they have, but in a healthy way. I thought about psychology at first and becoming a therapist or psychologist. However, shortly after I then realized I wanted to still teach subjects to students so that they I can see them learn and improve academically as well. I have always had a passion for teaching but it really became clear my senior year that I was meant to teach special education to help the progression of students and use my experiences to let them know that they are not alone.
Students that have special needs, particularly behavioral needs can often feel left out, lost, forgotten, behind, or dismissed and I want to provide an environment for students to not have to feel that way throughout their time in school. Something that has been hard for me is that I have to realize I will not be able to change every student's life or self-concept, but what I can do is offer consistency, reassurance, help, guidance, and encouragement to them so that they can best and show up for themselves so that they can achieve their goals with the help of myself and other educators. Students who have disabilities often have low self-esteem and self-concept, but teaching to reaffirm themselves by providing the language they need to encourage themselves is important so that they can develop more confidence in themselves and carry that with them throughout their lives. For example, telling them they are capable, they are smart, they can do it, they are worthy of doing more, etc.. I want to create a place where students are able to learn how to feel confident in themselves and also are able to know that if they fail or cannot get the concept right away, they will still succeed as long as they continue to try. Many kids give up when they think that they cannot do something or when they do not get something right away because it is easier than having to try again.
A student's presence is most important for themselves to be aware of because it helps to develop self-concept, self-esteem, and self-awareness. When they are able to find how they can help the community they live in. When students are aware of their presence they are able to participate in the community just as others do. Each person has their own individual presence and to themselves it should be known, because then they will start to find a purpose within themselves. Whether it is to help their community or just be a productive member of their community both are equally important. A student’s presence could be both good and bad, but as teachers it is our job to encourage them to have a positive presence everywhere they go. Additionally, each child also has a purpose in life just as any person and it is our job as educators to be their cheerleaders so that they can seek out that purpose fully and take advantage of it. I would like to be able to guide my future students to understand their purpose and unlock the feeling of their presence to be able to unlock their fullest of potential. By teaching them social skills students are able to interact with people in different communities or in their own communities because they know how to have conversations with others appropriately. Social skills are important when helping students become aware of their presence because they then know what is appropriate and what is not appropriate. It is also important to teach emotional recognition and regulation throughout a student's educational career because they need to learn different ways of coping with their emotions, especially when they are upset, frustrated, sad, excited, etc. Being aware of your presence includes being self-aware when you feel that your emotions are out of check, or you feel that you cannot have self-control.
Students often lack self-control until they are in high school, and even then, they still might. Elementary levels are often still learning the rules, so they do not fully know what self-control is. Middle schoolers like to push the limits and see what they can get away with because they are starting to feel more mature but are still immature and can still lack the self-control they need. When students reach high school there is a good mix of students that have self-control and those that lack self-control still. When students are finally old enough to graduate the hope that all teachers have is that they have been able to find their presence that they are supposed to have and they know how to use it properly within the world and their communities.
Not only teaching them how to socialize and understand their emotions but also helping them increase academically by providing different ways of learning and experiencing the class so that they can understand best. Helping them academically also includes collecting data so I know what they are strong at and what they struggle with most. I understand that every student will be different and every student has different interests. By incorporating their interests into their learning they will be able to stay engaged so they want to follow along and learn more. There are also real life skills that students who have special needs can learn by experiencing them. I know many contained classroom teachers that often have a school spirit store or food/drink place that their students run in order to teach them how to work in the real-world by gaining specific skills.
Picture this, a group of students struggling mentally with their home life and their school life. They feel left out, alone, and hopeless. They start to struggle academically because they have no outlets. They even start to think that they cannot dig themselves out of the hole they are in. Missing assignments clutter their room and mind, and when they are in class they cannot concentrate on anything but how messy their life is and feels. The struggle continues but they continue to feel that they have no one. There is nothing they can do about it so they start to give up. However, here comes Miss J swooping in to help and guide them into a successful educational career. The students look to her, she asks them all what she can do. She finds out their interests, their dislikes, how they prefer to learn, what they want to do in the future. The rapport grows! Students learn to trust her and learn more academically. They find a place they can be themselves while learning. They start to work hours and hours throughout their day without giving up. Classroom focus increases because of the different methods, research, and universal designs for learning that Miss J provides. Their test scores go up, their progress increases, they are excelling in all levels! students who had a hard time in math now love it and can teach it to others.
Those who had no way to let out their emotions now have different therapy designs to help them let go of their stress, anxieties, and anger. They find new hobbies that help express themselves and they finally feel heard. Some start to love art class because they never knew they could be so free. They get to release their emotions through artistic expression and freedom the art teacher provides them with. Some students get introduced to new sports through the encouragement of trying out for unified sports groups, so now they are apart of something bigger than themselves. Others learn they like to write and they start to write journal entries to share with Miss J to tell her about some of the things that go on in their home lives and better share their emotions. For others, they find an outlet in having the freedom of being able to go for a walk around the building and then back to class is enough for them. Each student now has a way to express themselves and release their emotions appropriately. They continue their year and grow immensely through it and they continue to find out new things about themselves. Some even find that they like school and became eager to learn more about different topics and subjects.
Students finally come to the end of their school year and they are given their state test. As nervous as they are Miss J reassures them they know what to do, how to answer the questions, and are fully prepared for this test. They spend weeks reviewing all of the things they learned all year. They do review games, study decks, and challenges to get their brains to pull the information back to the front of their mind. the students start to feel more prepared to take the test. They are getting review question after review question right, their confidence is boosting. As they draw closer to the week of testing, they have all the tools they need to help. Now it is testing day, they get their paper, pencils, mints, and a silent squish to calm their nerves. Right before they go in, they all take a group deep breath with Miss J, then with pencils in hand, ready to go, they enter the room. They take the test and after a grueling hour and a half they are done! A month later they get their grades back, they passe with flying colors and immense improvement from the year before. Miss J tells them that they each passed and that it was all because of the hard work they put in the entire year to get better every day they came to school. Proud as she can be she tells them all that they did wonderful, and all their hard work finally paid off.
This short story is to tell that the success of students is only guided by teachers, no produced. Students themselves have to make the choice to produce better grades, test scores, relationships, and emotional progress. I want to be able to provide the guidance for students to excel in all aspects of their life no matter what it is. When a student comes to school they carry so much with them, as their teacher we are to wear every hat they need us to wear. Whether it is nurse, mom, therapist, cheerleader, etc. it is our job to help them as much as we can. It is hard and can often give many teachers burnt out, but it is necessary to see student success in all aspects. I want students to come to school excited to learn and have me as their teacher.